Jumat, 8 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Gajian, cukuplah..
Tapi ada manager setengah kopling, setengah power, setengah bloon. Aneh. tidak paham arti menempatkan, tidak paham menempatkan power..
Hahaha... berapa kali hari ini beliau masuk ruang sempit bau itui? Anehnya setelah masuk ruangan itu.. langsung ...bla..bla..bla... Order-order gak jelas dan gak mutu keluar dari mulu-nyat seperti water canon saat menghalau demo!
17:00~24:00
RSIA Budi Asih Serang, anter yayang nengok calon Srikandi di perut. Alhamdulillah dah jalan 4 bulan. Waktu USG.. hehehe.. dah mulai terbentuk kepala, tangan, kaki. Maha Besar sang Khalik. MAsih belum kelihatan Srikandi atau Arjuna. Ngarep sih Srikandi.
Mudah-mudahan si Bening Gita BUmi cepet menhirup indahnya Dunia. Bapak menantimu sayang...
Satu lagi... saya masih bertanya-tanya..., kenapa ya dokter kandungan Yayang gak berani atau punya alasan apa, setiap kali bercakap dengan saya, seperti enggan menatap mata. Jangankan mata.. menatap wajah saya-pun sepertinya enggan. Selalu kalau bicara sambil "disambi". OK-lah kalau memang sambil periksa Yayang, kadang ini sudah selesai periksa, tulis resep dan masuk ke arah konsultasi, selalu begitu. Seperti menghindar... Kenapa yaaa...?? Oh iya.., dokter-nya cewek! Apakah itu bisa sebagai suatu alesan? Masih menjadi Misteri...
Sabtu, 9 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Heran sama pemerintah, tau nih tanggung jawab pemerintah daerah kah, pusat kah atau ASDP. Sepertinya gak belajar dari apa yang sudah dialami. Maksudnya belajar dari pengalaman. Kejadian tersendatnya penyeberangan Merak-Bakauheni sudah sering terjadi. Gak satu dua kali.. tapi beribu-ribu kali!! Kenapa tidak lekas belajar.????? Kalau begini khan jadi ganggu semua. Tol merak dipenuhi wajah wajah sopir yang kuyu dan seperti wajah manusia yang tidak punya harapan! Berhari-hari mereka hanya "berumahkan" truk-truk mereka yang berjajar dari pelabuhan merak sampai pintu tol Cilegon timur!! coba bayangkan itu, berapa kilo? 10 kilometer lebih saudara-saudara! Tidak-kah ini terlihat oleh yang terhormat pejabat? Tauhukah efek domino dari kondisi ini????. Ah capek-lah..
Masih ngutak-ngatik blog. Dan masih belum begitu paham. Gak apa-apa lah sedikit demi sedikit. Siapa tau ini awal modal buat kesibukan pensiun nanti. Ya sopo ngerti tho.. Namanya juga usaha. Terutama itu lho, banyak orang yang bisa menghasilkan uang dari blog sin. Coba-coba juga ngedaftar di GoogleApps, Google adse, tapi masih belum. Orang belum tau cara-caranya. Pelan-pelanlah. Yang jelas, hari ini lembur tapi untuk kepentingan pribadi!! Hahahaha..
17:00~00:00
Nasi uduk + JENGKOL!!!!! Terimaksih buat yang ngasih barang berharga nan eksotis ini! Mantabs.. pas perut keroncongan, eeehh.. ada yang ngirim bungkusan coklat! SIKKAAAAATTT...
Hehehe... ada yang protes dengan bau eksotik itu.... sopo??? rahasiaaaa...
CILEGON KEBANJIRAN MOBIL!!!!! PARRRAAAHHH... Pemerintah uuuoooppooo... iki. MAcet total!
Untung sampe rumah di Warner TV lagi tayang Harry Potter and Goblet of Fire.. Lunas deh kesel-nya.. ilang plas begitu ngeliat setting dan background Harry potter ... suram tapi indah.
Minggu, 10 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Bangun tidur berasa gak enak. Ada apa ya dengan tidurku semalam. Mana Igi dah tereak nagih janji mau beli hot wheel yang bisa kamuflase. Ok son... bapak mandi dan sarapan dulu.. tentunya sambil nabung dong! hehe.. bahaya kalau ritual itu gak dilakukan. Bisa-bisa pom bensin seluruh Indonesia bisa jadi tabungan saya! Hahaha...
Yayang juga dah mulai "lapor" sudah ada gerakan-gerakan di dalam perutnya. Ok sayang.. bapak dengan setia menunggumu. Amin YRA. Sekarang persiapan mau anter Igi yang nagih janji beli hot wheel. Dengan bangganya dia bilang..,"pakai uang Igi sendiri pak! Iyaa...iya... lhe. Lets go. Tapi makan mie ayam alun-alun dulu yaa..
BUSSSYEEET... puanas banget Cilegon.
17:00~00:00
Yaaah, Mclaren kalah lagi.. padahal balapan seru banget. Vettel yang awalnya "nyaman" di depan akhirnya kekejar juga sama Alonso. Hehe.. crew pit harus di training lagi tuh. Lebih parah crew pit jagoan-ku Mclaren. Mosok baut roda lupa dipasang? Di lap 40 ada ban yang jalan sendiri! hihihi gak taunya punya Button. Kasian si Button. HAmilton yang sempet di urutan kedua, kececer juga akhirnya finish ke 4. Dan hahaha... Ferrari yang luaaaamaaa gak ngrasain menang, akhirnya dibayar lunas sama Alonso! Seru seru...
Senin, 11 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Hari pertama sekolah... hahahaha ribuuuut tadi pagi. Yayang mulai kelimpengan lagi. Tereeaaak... Igi! Cepetan mandinya.. Ega! Jangan nonton tv mulu.. Bapak! Nih celana dalemnya ketinggalan! Kebiasaan! Hahahah.. bikin rindu suasana seperti ini. Tapi harus dirubah! Kasihan Yayang..
Sepertinya titik jenuh hampir-hampir ini. Ditambah dengan kondisi lingkungan dan mungkin ada kontribusi dari saya juga, sepertinya "kenyamanan" itu mulai sedikit demi sedikit hilang. Kenyamanan versi saya tho, artinya suatu keadaan yang membuat saya bisa lebih tenang dalam bekerja, lebih enjoy dalam silaturahmi ataupun lebih mengerti dan saling mengerti antar teman. Tapi, wilayah itu akhir-akhir ini sering terusik dengan ketidak cocokan menterjemahkan kenyamanan itu dengan orang lain. Mungkin saja orang tersebut berbuat begitu kepada saya merasa nyaman. Saya sendiri gak boleh protes dengan itu, karena menterjemahkan kenyamanan seperti itu. Beda dengan saya. Mudah-mudahan saya dalam menterjemahkan kenyamanan itu mempunyai efek membuat nyaman orang lain juga. Karena saya pikir apa gunanya saya merasa nyaman kalau orang lain tidak bisa merasakan kenyamanan itu. Percuma. Kedengarannya saya orang baik yaa.. ya gak ada salahnya saya berusaha menjadi orang baik. Tapi ini saya dah mulai eneg dengan terjemahan kenyamanan orang lain yang membuat orang lain trermasuk saya itu menjadi tidak tidak nyaman sekali. Gebleg! Tahukah orang itu bahwa saya selalu berusaha memperjuangkan segala kepentingan dia. Tahukah bahwa dalam memperjuangkan itu harga diri hampir terjual. Tapi apa yang saya dapat? Mending nol, ini mah negatif! Brengsek! Tapi belajar lagi berpikir positif buat saya, hal itu sebagai pelajaran lagi tho buat perjalanan hati ini, perjalanan menuju sang Khalik, perjalanan melewati kehidupan yang memang harus dilalui dan keras. Saya ambil pelajaran itu, bertambah lagi "vocabulary" saya tentang karakter seorang. Tidak cukup saya hanya mengenal Sengkuni, Dorna ataupun Werkudara (bima). Karakter Serigala, Tikus dan babi tidak ada salahnya harus saya kenal. Dan saya harus belajar juga tho... jangan hanya jadi kelinci yang dielus-elus.. kemudian dipotong!! Saatnya bangkit menjadi minimal Dodi SUprapto!! Bukan Anjing, Bukan Macan ataupun Kelinci. Tapi Dodi Suprapto yang memang Dodi SUprapto! Bukan Dodi Suprapto yang anjing itu, atau Dodi Suprapto yang babi itu.
17:00~00:00
Hahaha... lupa deh kejadian tadi pagi. Hilang dengan maen Futsal! Indahnya kerjasama, indahnya kerja team, indahnya nyingkirkan egois demi menciptakan sebuah GOAL. Futsal teruuussss... asal tau diri, umur tidak menipu. Secukupnya saja... Sayang makan ketoprak dulu tadi, jadi perut kaku deh. Gah full maennya. Senin depan futsal lagi.
Selasa, 12 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Berangkat pagi.. so ordinary... and so lasy. Tapi harus berangkat
Eh gak taunya Pelabuhan Merak masih saja tersendat. *ngelus dada* kapan pemerintah mau belajar yaa.. Bodo teuing lah. Tapi kok dampaknya ke saya juga, rakyat biasa! Jalanan jadi macet, mana kondisi jalan Cilegon-Merak parrah! Untunglah sudah mulai progress perbaikannya. Ruas jalan Kramat sampai Serdang.. muluuussss... Teruskan yaa.
Lagi ngaduk-ngaduk yang bisa datengin uang lewat internet. Ada yang punya pengalaman?
17:00~00:00
Maaf ya Jepun san, jam ini watashi tidak bisa ikut safety meeting, karena ada yg lebih penting. Watashi bertanding bilyard! hahaha.. sorry lho san.. bener. Nanti kalau menang dikhabari. Hihihi
MENANG...!!!!!
Rabu, 13 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Berangkat dengan hati yang agak "ngenes", the right man on the wrong place. Tanggung jawab siapa dan wewenang siapa serba gak jelas. Dan kondisi itu sudah nular sampai bottom. Tingkah laku tidak pada tempatnya, ketidakmengertian yang tidak pada tempatnya sehingga membuat semakin bodoh. Dan Dodi Suprapto yang masih penakut dengan kondisi itu. Komplit dah..
The Baduy community in Banten is an utterly unique and closed society which can be reached by road from Rangkasbitung/Lebak. The road is steep. But I’m sure will pay with the pleasure when enjoyed the panorama. To get Baduy village, we must get there on foot about 10 km by steep footpath road from either Cibolegar or Cibungur village in the Leuwidamar district. It’s not bad to decrease the
But like local said, in April and May, the Baduy community is closed to outsiders, as during this time it commemorates certain ceremonies, called Seba, the offering of part of their agricultural products to the Head of the District, Sub-Regent and the Chief Resident. During this ceremony the "Puun of Baduy" sends out a group of representatives of Baduy Dalam people as well as Baduy Luar to act as the community's spokesmen. When conducting this Seba ceremony the Baduy Dalam members refuse to ride any vehicle, instead, the distance of 150 km is traveled on foot as proof of their perseverance.
My daydream imagines the beautiful of Baduy community was paid by the whimpering of my youngest son Juang. Maybe he little bore in the car, so we stop in Cipanas district. In Cipanas district there’s hot springs but again my sons refuse to get there. OK, the whimper of my son stops when I buy “rambutan” fruit or “hairy” fruit? Hehe…. Rambutan is my beloved country Indonesia native fruit. It has taste sweet and sour. December is rambutan and durian seasons indeed. But because of my low budget trip, we do not buy or enjoy the sensual taste of durian!
In the middle day, we arrived in the city that famous to be called “rain city” Bogor. Bogor is the one of my dream city to be lived in Indonesia. I really like the giant ancient trees that still remain stand still in the corridor of Bogor roads. They were came the “cold and green effect” of Bogor city. The three of my dreams city to be lived are Malang, Bandung and Bogor. And three of them also have giant ancient trees that still remain stand still in the corridor of their roads. So, I prefer attract to the giant three or the cities actually? I do not know, the fact is I always dream to live in the one of those cities!
However, Bogor is famous because of its Botanical Garden which borders the Palace Grounds, covering an area of 87 hectares with thousands of species of plant-life from all over the world, including towering age old trees and the rarest kinds of orchids. See the original "Havea Brazilliensis" rubber tree, formerly imported from Brazil, and world's largest flower, the Rafflesia, a foul smelling and stem less as well as leafless plant. But… hehehe.. Again my sons refuse to get there! Curious! But thanks God, low budget of me seemly will clear budget! And my sons enough only enjoy the beautiful of Presidential Palace setting which is in a colorful and flowery vast garden around it. There are many deer in it garden, they make more colorful the Presidential palace.
17:00-00:00
And here again, the whole our car trip will be memorable only with my low budget. The culinary associate it also low budget! Because we just ate for lunch or exactly as dinner at Serang in the place that we usually enjoy low budget culinary! I was so happy to see my sons face showed happy face! They brutally ate the soup!
When I came home, I directly watch MU versus West Brom Albion!
Sunday, 30 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Continued regular activity that I have abandon for 5 month, is jogging! I have been starting my jogging for several days since I have bad condition of my health. And it proves that jogging can re-fresh my body.
I miss the seasoning Javanese salad (pecel) of my mother. I wish I can call her…
To little relieve my longing to my mother seasoning, I and my beloved wife search pecel to my breakfast. There’s a pecel’s seller at Cilegon but the taste could not match with my mother seasoning. But it’s not bad for my tongue.
17:00-00:00
And….sleep all day! But at 5 PM I already woke up and directly wash my office’s car. Sret..srot..sret..srot!
Hmhmhm… the boring meeting I must face in this evening in my neighborhood! When I really bored in the meeting, suddenly I received SMS from my sweetie. She told me that she got vaginal bleeding again! Again??? What can I say? I only deep concern when I read the SMS from her. It enough to see me how sad she was. And I do not feel that my tears start collect in my eyes corner! Be patient my sweetie, I’m sure the God will give the best way for you. Apparently my action was caught by my colleague. He asks me what’s going on, and I say…nothing. In my deepest heart, I always pray for you my sweetie…and I do not care my tears fall and been watched my colleague.
Monday, December 31, 2012
00:00-17:00
Lonely office and quiet! All of my accounting colleagues were annual leave and some of my Boss also take annual leave. So, what will I do? It's end of day in December and year 2012. Where I plant to celebrate New Year eve? I do not care and what ever! I better play with my entire sons. PS2 OK, or playing card..OK, or just watch the celebrating of New Year in all around the world on TV? I think it’s a good idea. I only call to my beloved wife to make some snack
Childish! Sometime I really wonder that some of my colleagues still and still have childish behave! This shouldn’t even be an expectation. Our mindset should be focused on giving. There will be times things don’t go our way. No matter how much we beg and plead, certain things weren’t meant to be. With two people in a relationship both have to be satisfied. Coming to terms with the idea it’s not all about one individual is challenging for some but necessary for all. A one sided relationship becomes old really fast. The other spouse will eventually get tired of giving and never receiving. And we all know what happens when one gets tired! Freaks! Do not we realize that most of us are over 40’s?
I want to know how my sweetie was. I send SMS and the replied that she was in obstetrician. My concern run wild and I do not know why. Is it my deep feeling to her? I do not know. In this situation, yes indeed she or I do not ask expectation or dependence, it only flows. Is it passions? Why it shame to confess if from this passion I feel happy? I do not ask from others to make me happy. My happiness is what I am feeling, it is in my heart. So even from this situation she do not pay attention or payback to me, I do not mind at all. I do not regret to myself. Right now I feel great if I am nearby her, but once again I do not bind with her. I only express my passion and my deep concern to her. That’s my choice.
17:00-00:00
I just put my butt, my son Igi ask me where to celebrate New Years Eve. OK, son. Lets dinner first and sleep for a while then. New Year… hmhm, a lot of joy in there but in my beloved country there’s also a lot of opinion concerning New Year Eve if associate with religion of the people. But once again, I do not care what the silly things that will be discussed or argue. The most important for me is my family can be happy with any condition, any circumstances and anything that make my family feel joy or happy! Let dumb people argue the dumb things!
At 11:00 sharp we go to city square and joint with thousand people who maybe do not care with silly opinion as Muslim that celebrating New Year Eve is forbidden! We as Muslim is forbidden to participate in any others religious aspect of celebration. And the big question for me is Celebrate New Year Eve religious celebration? What our ability to define that celebrate New Year Eve is religious celebration or feast? And… DHUAAARRR! My daydream is exploded by the joy of firework! Serang City Square is in tremendous fighting of fireworks that come from all Serang Citizen! I, my family and most of Serang city are soluble in the awesome excitement. No matter and we do not care the diversity among us. And…WELCOME 2013! No matter how bad or good your life can get, life goes on. Don’t waste a lot of time because of the past. I only live once so cherish whatever I can and move on living our life...!!! All that I hope for... all that I dream of... all that makes me happy... that's what I am wished in the New Year and always. HAPPY NEW YEAR FOR ALL!! PEACE IS MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN FIGHTING TO KEEP SILLY ARGUMENT!!
17:00~24:00
RSIA Budi Asih Serang, anter yayang nengok calon Srikandi di perut. Alhamdulillah dah jalan 4 bulan. Waktu USG.. hehehe.. dah mulai terbentuk kepala, tangan, kaki. Maha Besar sang Khalik. MAsih belum kelihatan Srikandi atau Arjuna. Ngarep sih Srikandi.
Mudah-mudahan si Bening Gita BUmi cepet menhirup indahnya Dunia. Bapak menantimu sayang...
Satu lagi... saya masih bertanya-tanya..., kenapa ya dokter kandungan Yayang gak berani atau punya alasan apa, setiap kali bercakap dengan saya, seperti enggan menatap mata. Jangankan mata.. menatap wajah saya-pun sepertinya enggan. Selalu kalau bicara sambil "disambi". OK-lah kalau memang sambil periksa Yayang, kadang ini sudah selesai periksa, tulis resep dan masuk ke arah konsultasi, selalu begitu. Seperti menghindar... Kenapa yaaa...?? Oh iya.., dokter-nya cewek! Apakah itu bisa sebagai suatu alesan? Masih menjadi Misteri...
Sabtu, 9 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Heran sama pemerintah, tau nih tanggung jawab pemerintah daerah kah, pusat kah atau ASDP. Sepertinya gak belajar dari apa yang sudah dialami. Maksudnya belajar dari pengalaman. Kejadian tersendatnya penyeberangan Merak-Bakauheni sudah sering terjadi. Gak satu dua kali.. tapi beribu-ribu kali!! Kenapa tidak lekas belajar.????? Kalau begini khan jadi ganggu semua. Tol merak dipenuhi wajah wajah sopir yang kuyu dan seperti wajah manusia yang tidak punya harapan! Berhari-hari mereka hanya "berumahkan" truk-truk mereka yang berjajar dari pelabuhan merak sampai pintu tol Cilegon timur!! coba bayangkan itu, berapa kilo? 10 kilometer lebih saudara-saudara! Tidak-kah ini terlihat oleh yang terhormat pejabat? Tauhukah efek domino dari kondisi ini????. Ah capek-lah..
Masih ngutak-ngatik blog. Dan masih belum begitu paham. Gak apa-apa lah sedikit demi sedikit. Siapa tau ini awal modal buat kesibukan pensiun nanti. Ya sopo ngerti tho.. Namanya juga usaha. Terutama itu lho, banyak orang yang bisa menghasilkan uang dari blog sin. Coba-coba juga ngedaftar di GoogleApps, Google adse, tapi masih belum. Orang belum tau cara-caranya. Pelan-pelanlah. Yang jelas, hari ini lembur tapi untuk kepentingan pribadi!! Hahahaha..
17:00~00:00
Nasi uduk + JENGKOL!!!!! Terimaksih buat yang ngasih barang berharga nan eksotis ini! Mantabs.. pas perut keroncongan, eeehh.. ada yang ngirim bungkusan coklat! SIKKAAAAATTT...
Hehehe... ada yang protes dengan bau eksotik itu.... sopo??? rahasiaaaa...
CILEGON KEBANJIRAN MOBIL!!!!! PARRRAAAHHH... Pemerintah uuuoooppooo... iki. MAcet total!
Untung sampe rumah di Warner TV lagi tayang Harry Potter and Goblet of Fire.. Lunas deh kesel-nya.. ilang plas begitu ngeliat setting dan background Harry potter ... suram tapi indah.
Minggu, 10 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Bangun tidur berasa gak enak. Ada apa ya dengan tidurku semalam. Mana Igi dah tereak nagih janji mau beli hot wheel yang bisa kamuflase. Ok son... bapak mandi dan sarapan dulu.. tentunya sambil nabung dong! hehe.. bahaya kalau ritual itu gak dilakukan. Bisa-bisa pom bensin seluruh Indonesia bisa jadi tabungan saya! Hahaha...
Yayang juga dah mulai "lapor" sudah ada gerakan-gerakan di dalam perutnya. Ok sayang.. bapak dengan setia menunggumu. Amin YRA. Sekarang persiapan mau anter Igi yang nagih janji beli hot wheel. Dengan bangganya dia bilang..,"pakai uang Igi sendiri pak! Iyaa...iya... lhe. Lets go. Tapi makan mie ayam alun-alun dulu yaa..
BUSSSYEEET... puanas banget Cilegon.
17:00~00:00
Yaaah, Mclaren kalah lagi.. padahal balapan seru banget. Vettel yang awalnya "nyaman" di depan akhirnya kekejar juga sama Alonso. Hehe.. crew pit harus di training lagi tuh. Lebih parah crew pit jagoan-ku Mclaren. Mosok baut roda lupa dipasang? Di lap 40 ada ban yang jalan sendiri! hihihi gak taunya punya Button. Kasian si Button. HAmilton yang sempet di urutan kedua, kececer juga akhirnya finish ke 4. Dan hahaha... Ferrari yang luaaaamaaa gak ngrasain menang, akhirnya dibayar lunas sama Alonso! Seru seru...
Senin, 11 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Hari pertama sekolah... hahahaha ribuuuut tadi pagi. Yayang mulai kelimpengan lagi. Tereeaaak... Igi! Cepetan mandinya.. Ega! Jangan nonton tv mulu.. Bapak! Nih celana dalemnya ketinggalan! Kebiasaan! Hahahah.. bikin rindu suasana seperti ini. Tapi harus dirubah! Kasihan Yayang..
Sepertinya titik jenuh hampir-hampir ini. Ditambah dengan kondisi lingkungan dan mungkin ada kontribusi dari saya juga, sepertinya "kenyamanan" itu mulai sedikit demi sedikit hilang. Kenyamanan versi saya tho, artinya suatu keadaan yang membuat saya bisa lebih tenang dalam bekerja, lebih enjoy dalam silaturahmi ataupun lebih mengerti dan saling mengerti antar teman. Tapi, wilayah itu akhir-akhir ini sering terusik dengan ketidak cocokan menterjemahkan kenyamanan itu dengan orang lain. Mungkin saja orang tersebut berbuat begitu kepada saya merasa nyaman. Saya sendiri gak boleh protes dengan itu, karena menterjemahkan kenyamanan seperti itu. Beda dengan saya. Mudah-mudahan saya dalam menterjemahkan kenyamanan itu mempunyai efek membuat nyaman orang lain juga. Karena saya pikir apa gunanya saya merasa nyaman kalau orang lain tidak bisa merasakan kenyamanan itu. Percuma. Kedengarannya saya orang baik yaa.. ya gak ada salahnya saya berusaha menjadi orang baik. Tapi ini saya dah mulai eneg dengan terjemahan kenyamanan orang lain yang membuat orang lain trermasuk saya itu menjadi tidak tidak nyaman sekali. Gebleg! Tahukah orang itu bahwa saya selalu berusaha memperjuangkan segala kepentingan dia. Tahukah bahwa dalam memperjuangkan itu harga diri hampir terjual. Tapi apa yang saya dapat? Mending nol, ini mah negatif! Brengsek! Tapi belajar lagi berpikir positif buat saya, hal itu sebagai pelajaran lagi tho buat perjalanan hati ini, perjalanan menuju sang Khalik, perjalanan melewati kehidupan yang memang harus dilalui dan keras. Saya ambil pelajaran itu, bertambah lagi "vocabulary" saya tentang karakter seorang. Tidak cukup saya hanya mengenal Sengkuni, Dorna ataupun Werkudara (bima). Karakter Serigala, Tikus dan babi tidak ada salahnya harus saya kenal. Dan saya harus belajar juga tho... jangan hanya jadi kelinci yang dielus-elus.. kemudian dipotong!! Saatnya bangkit menjadi minimal Dodi SUprapto!! Bukan Anjing, Bukan Macan ataupun Kelinci. Tapi Dodi Suprapto yang memang Dodi SUprapto! Bukan Dodi Suprapto yang anjing itu, atau Dodi Suprapto yang babi itu.
17:00~00:00
Hahaha... lupa deh kejadian tadi pagi. Hilang dengan maen Futsal! Indahnya kerjasama, indahnya kerja team, indahnya nyingkirkan egois demi menciptakan sebuah GOAL. Futsal teruuussss... asal tau diri, umur tidak menipu. Secukupnya saja... Sayang makan ketoprak dulu tadi, jadi perut kaku deh. Gah full maennya. Senin depan futsal lagi.
Selasa, 12 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Berangkat pagi.. so ordinary... and so lasy. Tapi harus berangkat
Eh gak taunya Pelabuhan Merak masih saja tersendat. *ngelus dada* kapan pemerintah mau belajar yaa.. Bodo teuing lah. Tapi kok dampaknya ke saya juga, rakyat biasa! Jalanan jadi macet, mana kondisi jalan Cilegon-Merak parrah! Untunglah sudah mulai progress perbaikannya. Ruas jalan Kramat sampai Serdang.. muluuussss... Teruskan yaa.
Lagi ngaduk-ngaduk yang bisa datengin uang lewat internet. Ada yang punya pengalaman?
17:00~00:00
Maaf ya Jepun san, jam ini watashi tidak bisa ikut safety meeting, karena ada yg lebih penting. Watashi bertanding bilyard! hahaha.. sorry lho san.. bener. Nanti kalau menang dikhabari. Hihihi
MENANG...!!!!!
Rabu, 13 July 2011
00:00~17:00
Berangkat dengan hati yang agak "ngenes", the right man on the wrong place. Tanggung jawab siapa dan wewenang siapa serba gak jelas. Dan kondisi itu sudah nular sampai bottom. Tingkah laku tidak pada tempatnya, ketidakmengertian yang tidak pada tempatnya sehingga membuat semakin bodoh. Dan Dodi Suprapto yang masih penakut dengan kondisi itu. Komplit dah..
Thursday, 20 September 2012
00:00-17:00
DISASTER! When I will open my personal blog, the blogs
can not open! And after confirmation with the hosting server, there’s a mistake
in re-format! So.. all data are gone! And can not safe!
What
a disaster for me! What a wasted time for me! All of my creations, all of my
thoughts, all of my opinion, disappear in second! Can you imagine? How much energy that I wasted since last 2
years? How much feeling that lost in last 2 years? All is gone. Gone with the
stupid human nature! Humane is used as
justification of the careless! How it can be? But, what can I say?
How
poor for me. I must re-build a new
blogs, including new post of course!
So,
I do not passion to fulfill my daily life! It’s really disappointed me.
More
resent that my sweetest did not come in this day plus 1 day ahead. She takes
annual leave. Instead she always becomes my spirit to kill the time in my whole
working atmosphere! Oh….
The
hosting server tells to me that the blogs must be re-formatting! I do not care!
Must I move to other hosting server? Hmhmhm….. Remember the current
relationship between me and the server; I think I must not move to the other
hosting server. It needs several times to build the relationship. And it can be my lessons of life that
forgiving each other, no harm at all!
Still
wait the hosting re-activated the blog. I try to search my old document. Who
knows there’s a little help to look for my……JOURNEY! It’s un-useful! Same condition, I remove the file if I have
upload the file! Arrrgghghgh!
00:00-17:00
Maybe
the impact of the occurrence of my day, my wife’s astonishment is welcoming me.
I did not care with her astonishment, how poor she is. But I hold her hand and
say,” I’m hungry. What did you cook today? Let’s eat!”
To
entertain me, I invite to my lovely pirates and wife dinner outside, I mean
going outside! My lovely wife, Ega, Igi and also Juang look like so happy with
my inviting.
Almost
21:00, we just went home. And directly go to bed.
Friday, 21 September 2012
00:00-17:00
Woke
up in the same time and directly go to front yard. And sink with my plant. When
I look the green of my plant, its temporary erased my miserable concerning
yesterday disaster! It’s healing me! Thanks God.
But……
still emptiness that I’ve got when I sit on my chair. I miss the sweet morning
greeting from her! Whereas she just one day take annual leave! How severe my feeling of me to her! Can I
reduce it? Let if flow! The important thing, still and still understand what we
feel and maintain it without any harm to our family. We respect our commitment
each other. But…. Her face always haunts me!
The
hosting server informed that the blog has been re-activated. And I start to
re-build.
My
concern is to re-build my blog in whole day. Go to hell with my job. My blog is
more important than my job! Hahaha. And planning I will overtime tomorrow, not
working but continued re-build my blog!
17:00-00:00
What
I feel better than yesterday. My lovely wife also welcomes me with the lovely
smile!
Dinner
with my favorite boiled fish! Whatever I eat more and more, I never get bored!
Saturday, 22 September 2012
00:00-17:00
After
did regular activities to take care of my plant, I rush get bath. I want to
re-build my blog immediately. And maybe with the disaster, I’ve got the
valuable lessons that I must change the option of my blog into…English! Let’s
get started!
Speedy……
go go go. Hahaha. My focus today is my lessons today!
And
still.. the ghost of her haunted me when I re-build my blog! So, the topic of
her is still painting on my words in my blog! Whatever…
Towards
this afternoon, the flatness covering my soul! I want to see my lovely pirates
and my lovely wife. Otherwise, my
madness about my sweetest colleague is dominated me! I plant to spend this weekend with… eating!
17:00-00:00
When
I arrived at home, I directly talk to my lovely wife about my plan. As usual,
it’s excited them! But, by mean to go there?
It’s easy; we can use my drier motorcycle! Go… hehe. Ega again and again
did not will to spend this weekend together. Because of we’re going by
motorcycle and did not accommodate! So, only 4 of us spend this weekend.
We
bought chicken noodles for Ega. His favorite!
Continued
sit in front of my LCD TV and watching English Premiere Lieges.
Sunday, 23 September 2012
00:00-17:00
Weiits…
in the last century! Hahaha… I did not wake up late. But today, I just woke up
at 7 am! How comfy I am! Maybe last night we play doctor with my lovely wife!
It’s hot! So, make us deep sleep! It’s not surprise make us woke up very late!
Thanks honey!
Little
bit tired to move stone from the field that store material ex previous house
constructions. It has a unique shape; I think is good for my garden ornament. It’s
heavy enough to lift up! Or my energy has run out after fight in lust with my
lovely wife? Hahaha…
Me,
my lovely wife, Igi and Juang went to city square to savor my favorite hobble
food..Chicken noodles! Poor of us, the chicken noodle merchant did not sell
today! So, what will we eat for breakfast? Soto Tangkar (Buffalo’s young bone
soup) finally becomes our breakfast menus!
The
weather so hot today! Very moist! Incomparable pleasure when I entered the
house enjoying the fresh air from Air Conditioner! Thanks God. You still give
us the pleasure. I can imagine the homeless in this weather.
Take
a nap
I’ve
been woke up by the noisy from living room.
Ooo..Apparently the friends of my son are doing the assignment from their
school.
17:00-00:00
Enjoy TV
shows… formula one racing! Moreover my hero Lewis Hamilton takes a pole today! But
unfortunately, after leading in 22
laps, his McLaren got a gearbox fault! What a bad luck! Vettel take advantage
from this situation. He had no trouble in keeping Button’s struggled with
balance on the soft Pirelli tire. Meanwhile, Alonso found his Ferrari lacking
the pace to do anything about either of them.
Indeed, the Spaniard was a little fortunate that besides Hamilton, a challenging Pastor Maldonado retired his Williams with hydraulic problems after 38 laps. And make Alonso more left behind the contender! It’s a big chance to make him world champion again.
Indeed, the Spaniard was a little fortunate that besides Hamilton, a challenging Pastor Maldonado retired his Williams with hydraulic problems after 38 laps. And make Alonso more left behind the contender! It’s a big chance to make him world champion again.
But my upset is cured by the winning of Manchester United
against Liverpool. 2-1 for MU!
Monday, 24
September 2012
00:00-17:00
It’s the day which makes me so happy! I feel the happiest man
in the world! Firstly my son Igi has been 9 years old, today is his birthday.
Second..hehehe… Thanks God still provide and make permission to see the
sweetest of my colleague! She come today and gives me a sweet smile! Haha.. And
of course the main things of my life and make me excited to take mighty journey
of my life is…. My beloved wife!
Oh
please…., do not make me flying so high! Please expressing in ordinary way. You
do not know what are struggling right now.
My
super duper superior starting annoying me! Maybe he forgot to get his pills!
He’s recurrence! The trade mark making all become super difficult has comes!
Hurray……!
Is
the comfortable that you need, Dod? What will you do if you do not feel
comfort? Searching for comfortable? And when your courage comes to accompany
you to search the comfort? Or you will fight the situation that makes you
uncomforted? I think I will fight till the end!
Actually I can not deny the desire to fly away from here is attacking me
with the flying of my handsome colleague! But, I already set an option, I will
fight! So, wait for the wolf-like face attacking you! I mean it and with any
mean!
Sometime
I wonder why we always use short message service in short distance. It’s Ok if it makes us happy. And more
various what we’re talked. Thanks to you for bring back my booster! I hope it
can accompany me to fight!
17:00-00:00
Go
dinner to celebrate Igi’s birthday. PIZZA HUT. Pizza… hmhm the food which I
hate! But for my lovely son, Igi. Let’s go..
Because
of the pizza can not fulfill my devil stomach, I make a sambal terasi when I
arrived! My humble food.. Delicious! Make me sweat! And give more energy for
tonight!
And..playing
doctor begin!
Tuesday, 25 September 2012
00:00-17:00
Believing
is no believing!
Beloved
is no beloved
Being
is not being
Something
is not anything.
Just
another day to believing from believe
Just
another time to beloved from beloved
Just
another second to being from being
It’s
a simple life what we feeling…
Simple,
too simple
Why
should we complicate?
So,
life goes on.
Today
my sweetest feel so happy. Caused by what? Money! Hahaha… Her proposal was
approved! And more and more I think, look like it’s so easy become her man. As
I observe, she always be decision maker concerning household needed. And what’s role her man? Hahaha… It seem the
passion to compare, did not wash away from my mind!
Whatever!
The important thing is… she bought me a delicious Batavia salad (gado-gado!)
for my lunch!
Hmhmhm... Someone should not be talking like that after leaving
something that makes my pillar collapses and ruin me into deep! It's indeed easier to be grown old than to be grown
up! And it would be disgusting if the
laughing accompanying it! I hope the “someone” really realize what was the
“someone” said. It’s really hurts.
What’s the super duper superior said, all of them
until now are not agree with mine, even they also not agree with common
society! Weird!
17:00-00:00
Today
it’s a half passion and a half annoying! And it’s impact with my appetite!
Wednesday, 26 September 2012
00:00-17:00
I do
not know what have pervaded me. I just woke up and suddenly I want making love
very very much. This lust has flooded to my mind. I must making love right now!
My beloved wife just smiled. Then, quick sex has happen in my kitchen!
Hahahaha… My beloved wife directly cleans herself but I directly take care of my
plant.
Maybe
I’m still in dirty condition, while I was spraying my plant with water,
suddenly the electric box in my house blown! A little panic to see what happen
and almost incidentally I’ll spray the electric box with water! But the fire
hurried off before I spray. Thanks God, the electricity immediately off! Because if it’s not, maybe my house has on
fire!
Desperately,
the electricity was off and we can not do anything. Because of all household
activities are very depending on electric, like cooking, washing, cleaning etc.
I obliged permit today. After send permission message to my shaggy hair
superior, I just in hurry go to PLN.
Thanks
my sweetest, you really help me on this situation. Your clue how to upgrade
electric capacity has avoided me over budget! Obviously it’s very easy to up
grading electric capacity in registration. On SMS, I idly ask her if there’s
trouble in household, is always she who take care of it? And it’s surprising me
that the answer is yes! I wonder how
easy of her husband! And makes me more…………..
Regarding
my sweetest clue, I only prepared money for the cost.
Waiting
jobs is indeed frustrating! PLN officer until this time has not come! I order
my beloved wife called again, maybe with the sound of women can melt PLN
officer! And it’s work! PLN officer came in a few minutes! How basic of man!
And
the work only does in 2 minutes! But why I should wait for so long? Almost 5
hours!
My
sweetest SMS! Hehe.. I little concern of my beloved wife. Actually she’s still
jealous if I talk or mention my sweetest. She SMS to asks the problem is it
okay.
17:00-00:00
I
did not eat “emping” for long time. I missed it. When I conveyed to my beloved
wife, she also missed too. So, let’s purchased!
Hmhmhmhm….
“emping” so delicious! Thanks God! You still give me a tongue to taste unique
and exotic snack! We almost erased the “emping” from its container while we’re
watching TV!
Thursday, 27 September 2012
00:00-17:00
Another
traffic accident which involving motorcycle! The group of farmer who cross the
street have hit by motorcycle this morning. I did not pay attention so much,
but I just concern why it’s always happen again and again. Is the habit of
motorcycle rider so low or the condition has contribution a lot? I only
annoying its make traffic jams!
This
is it! This is what the smiles are for! Its make me so blossomed!
But
the second of event is ruined by my super duper superior! How annoying! But is
matter a fact, I still and still become his subordinate!
There
was Japanese trainee again? It’s bored!
When the companies give same opportunity for Indonesian? How unfair!
But, still and still we’re employee, not employer!
I’ve
got a humble quote today from unpredictable man if comparing with the level of
education. This is the quote “If,
someone always whispering in a talk, It’s definitely his in fear!” Its make sense! Why we whisper if the
conversation containing a truth or anything that make others harm or its make
me harm? Why should I? So, let’s talk loudly! What we afraid supposed to?
I received another appreciation from others
today. And I do not care if I write in my blog, others also said to me that I
show off. I do not care. It’s matter of fact others have said that I am
friendly, smart, fun and easy to understand when providing explanations. And
there’s an appreciation which make me fly into the highest sky that I have good
looking face! And seem young than my age!
I got this twice today! First from Japanese trainee, second from
fragrant flowers in my Branch Office! That’s recognition! Good
recognition! But actually I’m still
waiting until now that the recognition came from my sweetest! It did not come yet from her mouth until
today! She always says the opposite way
if others admire me! Haha.. How beautiful of life!
17:00-00:00
Helping
my son to search his modem! His habit identical with me if searching for
something, always grumpy! More grumpy that my beloved also grumpy! She helps
but also blaming and grumbling! And it turn out that the modem was hidden by my
beloved son, Igi! Seem it’s the reason
why Igi did not help and look busy! It’s
a beautiful song that I heard from Ega and Igi argue! Hahaha…. How beautiful of my family!
Friday, 28 September 2012
00:00-17:00
What’s!
I can not believe it with the condition that one of my flower is dead! What
caused is it? Whereas that flower is one of my beloved wife favorite! Hmhm…
apparently its cat contribution! I replant of the damage remains. There’s still the remaining of shoots. Was so busy, I almost forgot to get bath!
It’s Friday, isn’t it! Not Saturday or Sunday! Haha..
More
weird my relationship with my sweetest! Sometime I’m shock with her treated on
me. Like today, she willing to queue at the post office in order to pay my bill
concerning the upgrading of my electric capacity. Whereas there’s no others
office necessity came. It’s really special to pay my bill! And to be noted that
I did not order to her, but on her own! It’s only caused of I’ve told her this
morning that I have not pay yet the cost for upgrading my electric capacity
because of no time of it! Thanks my sweetie!
Yaaaaah……
time to go Branch Office! Whereas I still not satisfy to fulfill my addiction
about her!
Not
interesting and boring!
00:00-17:00
Hmhm
… tomorrow is my sweetie birthday. I wish she was my special one; I’ll give her
special prize! But I should not do that, should I? It’s enough I send a
birthday greeting.
And
the feeling has erased on my mind while I was teasing my beloved son and wife!
But I can not guarantee if I met her again at my place that I suck its honey!
Saturday, 29 September 2012
00:00-17:00
I’m
not in the list who will over time today, but I should do! Be Mr. Guest! Haha..
I’ve
send stealth birthday greeting to my sweetie! I called it stealth, because the
greeting on behalf of as fiends. Actually it’s my deeply feeling that coming
from my deepest hearts. I hope she understand it! And seemly she also
understands. She expressing this also with stealth mode! Haha….
And
in a whole day I was thinking of her! To
fight it, I call to my beloved wife to suppose to just erase the thinking of
her! I ask to my beloved wife what has been cooked by her. Funny and weird!
As usual, intentions want to gather the
expensive hours and this overtime, but the feeling feels to go home immediately
has been concurred! Although in this
month my hours of overtime did not enough yet to pay my entire bill!
17:00-00:00
We’re
still no idea to fill our weekend, whereas the car is used to service the
employee who overtime in this weekend.
And the rational thing is… stay at home and watching TV! Haha..
Sunday, 30 September 2012
00:00-17:00
Another
oversleep in the Sunday morning! In this month I’ve two times oversleep! Caused
by what? Is it caused by my strange dream last night? I do not know. So, it’s
too late to take care of my plant. The best way to take care of plant is in the
morning and in the evening.
Hmhm..
This day is the bloody day of my beloved country Indonesia. 47 years ago my
country entrance into the ignorant civil war! It is called the popular term
“G30S PKI”. Many people which are one
country, one village even one blood were killing each other. It’s because of
the silly matters to defend each ideology. Firstly the “gang” of Indonesian
Communist Party (PKI) toke control. And the famous event which recorded in my
country history is the brutally kidnapping of seven general of Indonesian Army.
All of them are murdered and the bodies
were inserted in the tiny whale in Lubang Buaya Area. It’s make an anger of
Indonesian people. So, when the PKI’s were crushed by Indonesia Army in that
time General Soeharto as the commander, all Indonesia people revenge on PKI’s
followers. Even the revenge is inconsequential, so the Indonesian
killings field began! This conditions
used by cowards and provocateurs! They only said that someone is the PKI’s
followers it's enough to justify someone was murdered! It’s to shame while the
innocent people just yell a PKI’s follower, without any justification, they
directly killed! Thousand of Indonesian people were killed by its brothers! And
now day the blind curtain which covering the black history of my beloved
country step by step starts to expose.
Sometime I miss the film of G30S PKI that someone
said it’s a Orde Baru propaganda.
17:00-00:00
There’s
a new resident in our neighborhood. I was invite to take “selametan” new house.
Another Police become my neighborhood.
A little late to watch Moto GP live. And Dani
Pedrosa has a winner in this race. He blast Jorge Lorenso in his tail! Bravo
Dani!
Monday, 01 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Is
it humane or selfish! Every time my
super duper superior force to make decision which the decision containing a
high responsibility and high impact of his performance as a leader, he always
hide it! How coward he is. Sometime I always hope he was death! But the more I
hope, the more annoying that I feel to my super duper superior. I’m still wonder how he can think like that.
And
I feel uncomforted today. I do not know why. Is it caused by my sweetie, or my
super duper superior? Whereas my sweetie as usual always makes me passion to go
to work and I also saw and felt her sweetie smile this morning! And my right eye always pulse on the top
side. What is the sign? Hahaha… usually in Javanese custom, if any pulse on the
eye, it is show a sign! It’s a bad or good sign is depending on where the pulse
comes.
The best way to avoid prejudice others is…talk to him/her!
Not only whistling that not comfort to be heard!
17:00-00:00
That’s
the consequences if you do not measure your capability. You do not need nail
which bigger than the pillar! It is also for me. But why you’ve been my
followers? Whereas my capability loader than you? It’s so ridiculous. And now
you’re complaining to me about your…silly! How weird you are! It’s destroying
my appetite, you know?
Tuesday, 02 October 2012
00:00-17:00
My
addiction to pecel (Javanese salad) is pulled around by my beloved action. She
responded all my desire last night. My lust has...Abracadabra in the middle of
the night. Now my appetite has resolved with the pecel that has made by my
beloved wife! How complete of my life!
And
now I’m sliding to the place that my whishing, my dreaming and my nasty-nasty
fantasy are mixed.
My
whishing..ok with the condition that my colleague still respect tome. My
dreaming almost came true wit a tiny effort and a little patient. And my nasty
fantasy……hahahaha. Is it to be true to tell?
The
princess of smudge once again makes me…angry! How she make a mistake like that?
How smudging you are! And how many the
mistake that will you make again? I just wonder you’re clearly enough to count
the pubis of your prince of smudge! Why you can not finished the job which
easier?
How
peeve today right now.
17:00-00:00
Lho…Why
my son Ega in gloomy face? Ah… I take a bath first then I ask to my beloved
wife why it is. And more curios when I call Ega to take a dinner, he did not
come and still in his room. My beloved
wife did not explain either. Hmhm…
Ooo…
after rather calm the situation, I ask Ega why he is gloomy. And…. Hahahahaha…
It turns out he get a summons letter from his school. You know what it caused?
Because he has nasty chatted in classroom. Of course while his teacher being
thought in classroom. Actually my Son did not busted up in that time, but he is
claimed by his friend! His friend busted up today and when he was
interrogating, he told that there are 5 friends of him who do the same thing.
Including my beloved son! I say to my
beloved son, how coward his friend is. And I advised to my son, do not do like
that. It only been done by a coward! If you did a mistake, fess up! I doctrine
him, you’re a man. Act like a man!
Finally
my son a little comfort with my motivation.
Wednesday, 03 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Alhamdulillah,
my plant which broke by a cat, gradually heal!
When
I went to my place that I suck its nectar, my beloved wife also accompany. She
wants to meet my son’s teacher concerning the case of yesterday. Hehe… I told
her, do not worry! That’s a simply and common problem is accordance with my son
age. Sex..sex…sex…and sex! Just remember what we were done in the past! We only
keep an eye on him and control.
My
sweetie just smiled when I told. By SMS of course!
Jealousy
haunts me again with the achievement of others. Though achievement is ...
black! Very black, instead the color is covering the entire conscience! But I
want to do that! When I complaint to my sweetie, she only ask to me what the
cost of it, what the benefit of it and what happiness to be obtained. I do not
really pay attention on it. But I do pay attention to her beautiful eyebrow! It
pulse me to grab and eat it! Haha…
17:00-00:00
On
the way to my home sweet home while I was still imagining eating her eyebrow!
In last few minutes, I can satisfy my lust to “eat” her eyebrow, her eyes, her
face, her lips that decorated with a small mole on the upper, her breath, her
perfume and in the way she looks at me!
I can feel the desire inside.
Once
I get home, thanks to God. The passions and mischievous shadow is gradually
erased from my nasty mind by my beloved wife welcoming. Hehe…
Thursday, 04 October 2012
00:00-17:00
I’m
so lazy today to go to my office. The passion of work has free fall into deep
hole, even drown into deepest well of laziness. Should I take annual leave
today? But, the other side of my heart there’s a desire to push my legs to
step. Yeah… caused of my sweetie! What a complete of my life. There’s a booster
that can blown it up my energy to go work, and balancing with the complete
desire that can push my passion immediately go home! So, let’s go to work! Life
goes on…
Try
to sink with my job. But, whatever! My eyes drive trough the lazy world. Hour
and hour just to see the virtual world, continued with beautiful fragrant in
front of me! And I deeply fly.
My
super duper lucky brother paralyzed again! Did he know that I did not dumb???
17:00-00:00
I
and my beloved wife bought a proper snack for security that has night shift
tonight. Of course, there’s additional
cost for… dinner!
Friday, 05 October 2012
00:00-17:00
If it
was bad luck, anything can happen. As my friend, while he was riding the motorcycle
on the way to go home, his neck was got caught by cable of high voltage
electric that suddenly fell from its pole and dangling across the street this
morning. It caused he fell down and his arm was broken. Just imagine how many
percent the incident like this? But that’s life, full of unpredictable things.
Need our awareness everyday. How poor of my friends.
Apparently
I should a little decrease my craziness about her.
Friday
prayers… and the preaching are boring!
Hahaha…
when I try to little bit stand away from my sweetie, she do in the other
opposite way! Instead she acts closer than usual day. And according to my observation, it seems
every time I tried to get away, she always approached, even closer. Vice versa, if I was too close, seemly she also
tried to do like what I do. So, than the
effort to be in vain, better let it is of my feeling. Life goes on…
17:00-00:00
Another
salary day! Alhamdulillah…
Saturday, 06 October 2012
00:00-00:17
Keep
on target, every Saturday I’ll try to…OVERTIME!
I
really work, how surprising! Usually in the Saturday overtime, you do know what
I’m supposed to do! Yes! Writing a blog! But today beginning from fad to open
the com pany contract, it turn out is time to renewal all of them! So, it
caused I sink wit work today. The blog is forgotten. Haha… My employer wills
not loss to pay!
I
want to eat meat balls! Hrrrrr……..
Still
not accomplish yet my desire to feel expensive hour! I already at my home at 16:15! Oh my…
17:00-00:00
Meat
ball! Here I come! Haha…, only with my beloved wife I adore the taste of meat
ball!
And…watching
TV!
Sunday, 07 October 2012
00:00-17:00
While
I was taking care of my plant in the morning, I saw a little child with glazing
faced brought a sack on his back, seem the weight of sack almost as same as
weight himself. He was passing by in
front of me, without noticing me, he immediately scavenging garbage box beside my
house. He continued ignoring me, whereas there’s a man whose almost dropping
his tears was standing and seeing every single act of him. Eventually life is
so cruel! The child on his age who should still remain suck his parent’s
passion like my beloved son right now, because of necessities of life are hard
to come by even though it's basic need to eat and drink, he force to scavenging
garbage box beside of my house!
Fro
a little bit flushed my feeling about this condition, I chat to him. His 9
years old, his still in 3 grades of elementary school and when I asked to him
what does he do with his money, he proudly answer… to finance his school!! I
feel shame and proud hear his answer.
Just remember when I was child, I’m so stupid to dissipate my Uncle
passion and his patient to take care of me!
Was
it cause of the event this morning, I feel so gloomy this day. Suddenly flashed
my childhood! And I miss my father!
My
beloved wife feels it too. Maybe he worried if I mad to her that caused my
gloomy face. Not because it is, dear. It’s caused the memory of my childhood.
17:00-00:00
Vettel
won again and again! Sebastian Vettel moved to within four points of
Fernando Alonso in the fight for the world championship, after Sunday's
Japanese Grand Prix saw Red Bull dominate and Ferrari’s leader meet with
another first-corner disaster. And…poor for my favorite Mclaren!
I
directly change to movie channel!
Monday, 08 October 2012
00:00-17:00
My
driver, who quasi wants to be driver, did not come today. Of course I must be
driver for typology tyranny of mouth and… act-like goat colleague!
And….
Hehehe. Again and again I fight for my feeling of her!
Maybe
I had feel being admirer...
But
it never as beautiful as I admire you,
Maybe
I had feel being longing.
But
never as deep as I longing to you,
Maybe
you'll never believe that I’ve fallen into deep.
My
super duper superior take annual leave.
And make me need extra power to break my insanity the feeling about my
sweetie.
Oh
my sweetie.. why you toke annual leave again and again? Hiks…
Oh…
sorry, you will go to your parent’s house to commemorate the 40th day of the
death of your father. OK. Hehe.. I think…, As you known sweetie, right now
there’s uproar in my heart. The flare inside was up! And I was not able to
extinguish it! The flare more uproar if you were not in my range of view, even
if only one second! The reflection of you, the fragrant of you, the young of
you are always decorated my range of view. Even only 1 second you were not in
my range of view, the blue color is going to surrounding my heart’s veranda!
Blue…blue and blue. I just wonder, are you feel the way what I feel. And I do not care what the answer is. Do not
even you dare to extinct from my range of view! Haha..
It’s
enough for me you just only say goodbye by SMS. It’s enough to sprinkle your
care that I was in there. Thanks.
Office
atmosphere more comfort caused by my super duper superior was not on his chair!
I hope he will not present tomorrow!
17:00-00:00
There’s
something to fix in! And I really aware about what will fix in. It’s my
feeling! More and more going wild! But, it’s only lips service of mine. Every
time the fragrant come trough my naughty nose, every time I forget what I will
to fix. Instead the naughty nose more addiction! Whereas in my side there’s a
fragrance which it’s fragrant not less than hers! Life goes on…
Accompany
my son to study math. Because right now he trough Mid Semester.
And
I can not understand, in this situation I still had time to think about her!!
Waaarrrakadah!!
Tuesday, 9 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Who
quasi wants to be driver has come today. It’s annoyed me while I was seeing his
style. Actually his has not capability, but sometime he yells loudly that he
has a super duper capability.
When
I arrived to my office, the emptiness, the un-joy, the annoying mixed becomes
extraordinary vexation in my head! Moreover there’s a beast was sitting behind
me! Coward beast actually!
Haaarrrrrraaaaahhh……
please, give my passion back! Just bring me back to the riot of working! Do not
see me the deceitful, the ruthless and the hypocrites. My heart did not prepare
right now. My booster was not there. So please give me a break! Please wait until tomorrow, OK?
Yeaaaah…..!!
I did it! I did it! I did it not to SMS to my sweetie! Huurrraaay… Try to
forget what I addict! Haha..
My
beloved wife called that my youngest son got a fever! Hmhm… I told that try to
not give my youngest son a medicine. Let his antibody work. Indeed it has a
risk, but no harm to try the giving from God!
17:00-17:00
This
evening, my hands were fully for my youngest son. I ignored the yells of tired from my hands. I
again and again hold my youngest son in my arms. His body temperature is very
hot. But I take courage to not give him a medicine. The consequences he cried
and cried. Bismillahirohmanirohim…
Alhamdulillah,
my son had slept when I felt sleepy too.
Wednesday, 10 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Thanks
God, my son only twice woke up in the late of night. So I and my beloved wife
not too tired.
When
I woke up in the morning, my youngest son also already woke up. And his body
temperature a quiet decrease. I bring my son go outside to breath the morning
fresh!
In
the little scope of life, like a behavior in the traffic, it’s enough to show
me all human nature! The way you in the traffic, it can show the others your
human nature! There’s patient ones, the annoying ones, the selfish one, the
arrogant ones. It’s so complete! And what I was, I do not care! It was so
disgusting and resenting to be part of my beloved country traffic! Moreover my
driver is one of human nature that I hate so much! He arrogant and he like
showed off! Whereas the way he drives, it’s rubbish!
Still
I did not send SMS just say hello or want to know how my sweetie is. But it was
tremendous effort that I try today! Yes
indeed, usually start from me who will SMS first. But sometimes if I just send
a SMS to my sweetie, the replay is more than I did. Haha… instead I send SMS to
my beloved wife to ask how my youngest son was. Thanks God, he more recover right now.
17:00-00:00
Safety
meeting, how bore it was! Moreover the presenter was new guy in SHE dept. I think he did not experience yet! And more
ridiculous heard my super duper superior evaluated SHE performance. Not related
at all! And I can think his at all, why he acted boss-like behavior? Did the
act actually shall be act everyday in his working life? He did not realize that all of audience knew
the difference between the real boss and the boss-like! Weird!
Arrived
at home was welcomed by my entire beloved son. They knew if I has attended
safety meeting, fruit juice always was brought by me. This moment was always making me smile. My
lovely family were always decorating me!
Thursday, 11 October 11, 2012
00:00-17:00
My
youngest son completely heals! His slept soundly!
My
additional activity in the morning was…chat with little scavengers! I hope can
take a lesson from his persistence! Keep on child!
My
driver who quasi not been a driver indeed annoying! He always late if the car toke her home!
Patient…be patient. And want to punch his face that he did not feel guilty at
all! Whereas he was late for 10 minutes! 10 minutes is so meaningful in this
traffic condition! Did he aware?
My
resentment was paid by my sweetie smile! Haddeuh!! The contradiction was always
fighting every day. But it heals what I
was feeling, my feeling or more exactly my disappointment.
When
my sweetie asks to me why my face looks gloomy today, like a rampage flood, I
spluttered to her all my annoying. The friendships, the working atmosphere, the
achievement, the relationship, even the problem that should be inappropriate
been expressed to the person who has filled part of my heart’s chamber! It will
be a fertilizer concerning my struggle lately. But it has happen. I was so
fluent talking my entire problem to her. And same with the support that has
given my beloved wife that the wolf is remains the wolf; the sheep will be the
sheep. It very rare the wolf will emerge
the heart of sheep, even will be a dangerous thing if the wolf emerge his sheep
heart. That was not sincere, but contains foul intentions as the nature of the
wolf! As well as sheep, though ever act like wolves in this time, but he will always
come back someday, come back to his root, as lovely sheep! And the most be my
attention is what she said today that be careful to see the cover of the wolf
or the sheep! Their need deeply attention to understand if the cover as well as
the inside. And pick them to become the real friends.
17:00-00:00
It
seems as same as what I feel. Recently my ritual that we were always chatting
every time before bad and usually continued with playing doctor, were more
decrease. My beloved wife was too busy to take care of my youngest son. Was it
because my feeling to my sweetie stronger than before? I do not hope so. If is
it caused of this, time to fix in. whereas no problem at all with my relation
with my wife, but it seem a little influence concerning to my feeling lately.
Not to my beloved wife, because until today nothing change at all, but my
feeling to my sweetie! Moreover my sweetie also shows same sign! Dare to little
open to expresses her feeling. Hmhmhm…
Friday, 12 October 2012
00:00-17:00
My
youngest son more and more healthy… Thanks to god that my effort little
succeeded.
She
looks like be my cheers! Walk this way,
earn this offer. Just because this way, I lost my way
Hmm.. This Friday preaching was teaching that the
highest level of worship to God is because of God. And almost all of us have forgotten the way
we wish a mercy from God is for worldly purposed, such as begging for fortune,
begging for health etc. And forget the most important purposed as God’s
creature is looking for provision thing to come back to afterlife! And more terrible we tend to associating God
Power to others. Better make our religion be our culture than the culture is
crated as our religion! And the thing that I like a lot the preaching today is…
he also like play a contradiction of word! Such as; we better become suffering
but not suffering others people than be a fortune people but always make
suffering others. Once more, we better become a poor people but not make others
poor than become wealth but always making others poor! It is beautiful, isn’t it?
Sometime
I wonder, am I the foolish one or others did a fool to me! I hope the mighty eye will watch what the
going on is. Is the other been wrong in translating a kind of me? Or is indeed
others used me? But, I really sincerely
help and to express my concern, without any benefit that I will get. But what I
get pay?
17:00-00:00
Fortunately,
I get a chance to feel the fragrant of my sweetie in this evening. Me, her and
my super duper lucky brother were in the same car. So I can satisfy what I was
dream! What ever the others who seem like a wolf!
When
we arrived at her house, she proudly shows me her new house fence! She told me
that the fence was her design. And
indeed show whose the designer was…She was! Because the pink color was
dominated! Pink was her favorite color.
Whereas I hate that color so much! Teenage typical! But, what can I say.
My hate was covering the super duper feeling to her!
She
also offers me to come by to see her garden too. But I can hold this passion,
with the excusing that the dusk goes old, I refused it. In fact, I was not only wanted to come by, but
come in into her room! Wakakakaka…..
Saturday, 13 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Still
been Mr. Guest in Saturday overtime! Its expensive hours, you know?
Hearing
what the colleagues complain, sometime I think if I in the position like my
colleagues, was I can face that situation?
Their debt more than their income, so every month even every year most
of them only receive minus salary! Fortunately, in my company there was an
institution that can help them, but with this easiness, create a complacent.
Maybe if I was in this situation, I also did what they do, definitely!
But,
it also impact to me! My brother just called me that my mother’s house roofs
were rotten! If the roofs did not repair immediately, the damage becomes worst
and will possible collapse! They needed
2 cubic of timber. And not just a timber, but must teak for repairmen. Because
my mother’s house is one of old fashion house that majority made from teak! My
brother told the repairmen need cost IDR 25 millions. 25 million divide 3 (me,
and 2 sister of me). So, I must provide 8 millions. It doesn’t matter at all,
because my saving is enough for that. But the problem was a half of my savings
were borrowed by my colleagues! And when I collect, most of them told me what
their problem instead! Or in the simple word, they have not money for pay my
debt! So what can I do???? The emergency of my need, but I can fulfill the cost!
Will I borrow some money to others?? It is funny, isn’t it?
And
it’s enough for me to extinguish my passion to work today! I immediately went
home!
17:00-00:00
Still
thinking what I will suppose to do with this situation. Must I use my credit
card? Harrahhh….
Sunday, 14 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Still
and still confused what will suppose to do. Ah! It forces to use my credit
card! So, after little discuss with my beloved wife, I with my son Igi go to
the store that my friends said, it could be take cash from credit card!
But…,
after I told to the salesclerk, she told me that could not take cash
anymore!! Huuuasyyuuuuu….!
I
did not care anymore! Just went home immediately with a gloomy face! Igi just
stare at me. Maybe he just thinking, what’s going on with my father!
My
beloved wife also understands with the showing of my eyes. And she just
listened while I was telephone to my brother, maybe I could provide the cost
fully. He understood, but I can feel what my brother inside. But what can I
say.
17:00-00:00
Just
watching TV with my family and still feelings annoy.
Monday, 15 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Would
I borrow money to my friends? But it sound really funny. Actually I able to
provide the cost, but condition right now my savings was borrowed!
Contradiction!
I
or others, are really know the consequences what has been said? Sometime I
shock with others, especially with my super duper superior just been said right
now. Was he thinking first before spout his word to others? It was not for me
actually, but my ears were buzzing when heard what he said. The word for me, have the meaning more than
written on the paper! It directly, it stab, it sharper than sword in the world.
And it also turn become deadly weapon that can kill you! Beware for the word
that you have been said!
My
shaggy hair boss from this morning showed grim face! I do not know what was
annoying him. I hope not caused of me. I pray my super duper superior who
annoyed him! Haha…
17:00-00:00
Maybe
it’s enough to feel a little bit, even the highest feel of happy. It was
depending on our point of view to look at it. Like this evening, I have been
welcoming by my entire family all day I breathe my holy breath from God. My
beloved wife, My Eldest son; TEGAR PIJAK BUMI (EGA), my middle son; GIGIH IRING
BUMI (IGI) and my youngest son; JUANG RESTU BUMI (AANG). It is enough for me, even the highest
happiness. But sometime I feel sad and
unhappy while my lust was smearing my entire body. It will be worst if my lust
covered my conscience. I can not distinguish of lust and the wanted to make my
family or my self be happy. And most of my choice, seemly did not my conscience
yet. But…once again, but… by the welcoming of my entire family in this morning,
I feel the happiest man in the world!
It
may be my concern, still and still I can not distinguish my feeling to my
sweetie! It’s just admire or 2nd loving, even lust! Was it caused by
my 2nd puberty that mostly was talk by other person? Or it was
indeed come from my deepest heart. I can not distinguish yet! So, life goes on,
because I’m still feel happy come around if I met my entire family or my
sweetie. The things that I can get from my entire family, usually provide by my
sweetie, but sometime my sweetie was nothing if comparing with the kind and how
complete of my beloved wife. That was life, maybe. Where will you go and how
you will go. THE CHOICE!
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Aang,
my youngest son was more adorable! Thanks God. He was always nagging me when I
toke care of my plant. He happily was crawling and crawling after me anywhere I
went to. With the morning fresh air, I hope this activity can reinforce his
health, of course for me too.
I
still have not courage to tell that I need some loan! Haha
It
seems almost saturation points is, coupled with the working atmosphere and
maybe there were my contributions from me, seemed my "comfort" it
began gradually lost. The comfort was according to my version, of course. The
meaning a state that makes me be calmer while at work, enjoy the friendship or
more understanding and mutual understanding between friends. However, the
regions lately often disturbed by discrepancies translate that comfort with
others. Maybe these people do that to me feel comfortable. I was not allowed to
protest, because it translates as comfort is difference with me. Hopefully I in
translating the comfort it have the effect of making other people also comfortable.
Because I think what's the point I feel comfortable that no one else can feel
the comfort of it. It’s useless! It
sounds that I was a good person. No harm I try to be a good person. But I already
started with translations comfort others who make others comfort. I was
becoming uncomfortable at all if the comfort that I feel did not make others
comfort! Character of wolves, Rats and pigs should been known. And I had to
learn should not only be caressed stroked rabbits... Then cut!! It's time to
rise to a minimum become Dodi Suprapto!! Not a Dog, Not a Tiger or Rabbit. But
Dodi Suprapto indeed! Not pig of Dodi Suprapto, Not dog of Dodi Suprapto, or
pig of Suprapto Dodi. But Truly, Original, genuine of DODI SUPRAPTO!
I
do not know why lately I am easily offended. Even to things that are trivial.
And… my sweetie also feels about my offended. Hehe… she little annoyed with my
temper, although that temper not address to her. Life goes on…
17:00-00:00
What?
Pediatrician’s practice moved? Where? Oh my… where my youngest son; Aang get
immunization then? He was called by my beloved wife also did not picked up.
So
what then? Haha… Igi ask for “sop kaki”!
Sop kaki (some kind of soup that made from head, leg, even innards of
goat or buffalo, typical cuisine of West Java, especially Sundanese and Betawi)
is my family favorite cuisine. Might to say, we eat it once in a month. “Pak, I want sop kaki. Seems we have not been
eating it for a week.” I replied, “A
week? Just for a week, son, we have not eating.
Then, how long we should eat it? Should we eat it everyday?” My son only
smile with my replied. But I think no loss at all to eat sop kaki. So, we go to
“warung” sop kaki. But we go home first to pick Ega up. He was at home this
time. If we do not pick him, it will be
disaster! Haha..
Succeeded
five of us dinner feast with…SOP KAKI! The merchant look happy to see the
gluttony of us while we were eating sop kaki. Even Aang also participated in this hubbub! Oh
my family…
Wednesday, 17 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Traffic
Jam! It’s because hajj month right now. I do not understand with my country
tradition. If someone go hajj, the escort more than someone who go hajj itself!
The main road that I passed everyday was blocked by hajj escort! If I know firstly, better passed the highway
then! But I already in the crowded of hajj escort! Brrrrrrghrrr….
The
power of giving! Hmhm… when that quote is really be my trade mark. It’s because
latey I feel that power. The more you give, the more you get! But actually,
literally is let it flow. Come in from the beginning of the pipe and will come
out from he end of pipe. We are only with in, the more we try to hold the
current (fortune n friends), the more pressure that we got. Let it in, let it
out. Easy come easy go. While we were
enjoy in that current.
Oh
dear, It start rising a complicatedness in her relation of husband and wife.
The Husband was in high spirit of seeking, the wife was in high wanting of
attention. Go on sweetie, that’s a
married life. You should face and through it.
It’s
proven if my super duper superior did not presence, the atmosphere is so
comfort. Must he die? Haha…
17:00-00:00
Thank
you…
Thursday, 18 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Indeed,
if someone did not know who they are, the outcome is so annoying! I just wonder
why they deny who they are. And why should a tremendous effort if they actually
did not capable. Why they force for that? If because of that did not disturb
others, it’s ok. But others have been always involving by them! For example,
when I really need what I supposed have it and right now it can say…emergency!
They do not provide what I need, whereas those cash is mine!
Yesterday,
I was so happy with the spirit of giving. But right now, the otherwise that I
received. It hard to be really sincere!
Oh
dear my sweetie, did you understand that in the journey of husband and wife
relationship, the way you just through was common? Come on, you a strong lady
as you are. Face it and solve it. It just a few problem, whereas the problem
you will face is common and very ordinary. Your husband in high spirit in
searching what the responsibility was. And you in high attention to understand
what the family is. Both of you just do not extinguish each other. Let the fire
up, both of you just keep that fire not to burn your relationship. Both of you
will more understand by over time you with in. OK?
17:00-00:00
Hehe…
my sweetie on the way to her home SMS to me that maybe tomorrow will take
annual leave. The sick of her husband get worst, and he will back tonight. Yes,
it was a problem that made her little annoyed this afternoon. Her husband got
fever caused of infection of bacteria but he still force to finish his job
without pay attention of his health. Like I was said this afternoon, if he
feels able to work, just let him. He will know and feel if his sick can get his
activities. Just try to relax, he will go home and ask your attention if he
feel can get make it. And I was right, her husband just called her that he will
go home tonight. How basis of new family was. And the lessons from this, it was
proven that the advices from the older, mostly of them are right! It because
they already through the way! Just what I advice to my sweetie this afternoon,
it because I already through it!
Friday, October 19, 2012
00:00-17:00
I
want to start jogging but the face of my plant has conquered my plan to start
jogging. So, let dance my plant!
OK
my sweetie, just take care of your husband. He needs you right now. You just
ignored me today. Hahaha…
That’s
OK, but the audience did not catch the lessons at all! The preaching on you was
cover the over beauty the way you sang the holly scriptures of Quran. And what
we got? Just the sound of you which make all of us sleep! So, what will you to convey to us?? Sometime
I just wonder why all of us including me so hard to handle of choice. You must
determine which the priority was, if you want to show the beautiful you are
while were reading Quran, better you get the reading Quran competition. But if
you want teach us how the Muslim is; just convey the kindly of Islam. And indeed your voice was so beautiful.
Sometime
I just wonder how to be a good parent for our children. Like this morning I
just got news from Typo that was tickle our question as parents for our
children. Typo has a neighbor that their children always fight everyday.
Whereas the eldest brother was 24 years old and the youngest brother was 12
years old. But while they were fighting, the youngest brother always threatens
his brother with knife! I can imagine with his age has known and dare to
threaten his brother with knife. And…this morning he death because of
motorcycle accident! It’s shocking! 3 days ago he and his brother were in
frighten fighting. Typo also arbitrated them in that time, and evacuates his
older brother. It’s because his young brother seemly want to kill him! And just
morning, Typo told me that his already death last night. Directly splash out
the shadow of my sons! Was I correct and be good in educated them? I only hope…
17:00-00:00
I
and my accounting fellow visit my sweetie! Hehe…, her beetle got tonsillitis.
And when I look into her beetle, Hahahaha… the passion and desire were covering
my inner devil to compare with me! And of course, according to my version, I
always the winner! And a little jealous
when my sweetie put her head on his arms! Whuahahahaha…
Saturday, 20 October 2012
00:00-17:00
I
still tend to always presence in holiday overtime, whereas my passion was zero!
I forced to get a bite of penny. Life goes on…
I
attended my colleague wedding party. And more drop my affection went back to my
office, instead on the way to get back through my housing complex gate! So, I ask to my driver to get me to my home.
I already imagine hold my youngest son in my arm and look around my housing
resident with motorcycle. He so like it, and make me happier heard the way he
laughed. And then, fertilized my plant and take care of them.
My
beloved just smile when she welcomed me at the front door. And Juang my son,
directly struggling want to picked by me up.
Let’s go son!
17:00-00:00
My
son Igi whimpered wants to be bought by me a new games cassette. Company’s car
by a chance was at home, so… let’s go weekend with car! But like always, Ega
did want to accompany us. He likes to stay at home and sink with her online
game! Only four of us went to down town.
Sunday, 21 October 2012
00:00-17:00
It
because of the car will be borrowed by Typo to accompany his brother in law in
his wedding party, my plan to go breakfast at my usual subscriber of chicken
noodle, did not come. So, my beloved wife was making spaghetti for breakfast. Delicious…
At
14:00, the car already went back, and… my beloved wife still wants to go down
town! She told me that the supply of diapers was run out. Ya…ya…ya…
17:00-00:00
Sinking
with Sport TV Show!
Monday, 22 October 2012
00:00-17:00
To keep and maintain Occupational
Health and Safety that was established in my company, today I will start to be
internal audit for 2 weeks ahead! How boring it was!
I
will start the thing that makes me boring, I also through the road that show me
how jerk and useless of my provincial government! I only hope the auditee that I will audit
today will not make me more boring!
Hope
is only hope. Fact is the fact! The fact is… GRRGRGRRRRHRHRHRHRH……! Did others
realize that what have been said was a window of they are! Sucks! How dare you
are open your window widely but the inside is empty! Life goes on…Dodi.
Moreover
my “sakaw” did not meet today! I
wondered of my regret today has defeat my passion want to know how the sweetie
was! Even the delicious of my lunch was concurred by my annoyed! It jus caused
only one person! The lips a little move forward race with his nose! Chubby
cheek, fat, ugly and stinky!
17:00-00:00
My
appetite completely has gone! Will I make my temper bad to make me slim? The
beautiful question to bring back my joy today, should I? Arrghhhh!
Tuesday, 23 October 2012
00:00-17:00
I
still hope that what I will face today will not make me…..hmhmhmhm. I
hope…bismilahiromanirrohim.
Yes!!
Thanks God. So, auditor with auditee has collaborated! Yipiiiwww….
And
my lunch today was very delicious. Accompanying with the friendly boss and
friendly colleague!
I
believed if the day has started with the joy and happy, the good thing will
accompany it. Meet with friendly person, plus my sweetie has SMS me! Although
the SMS only told me that her beetle has went home and the tonsillitis of him
gradually heal. Its enough to make me
widely smile.
Still
have time to conduct annual medical check up. Deliberately make my body in the
worst condition to know what happen or what the illness of I am. And….hmhm, the
doctor who check me rather flirty, continuously she flatters me up. He told me that I have the face like…RHOMA
IRAMA! But rapidly revision, not like Rhoma Irama but like Ridho Rohma! The son
of Roma Irama! Weeeeek!! Two celebrities of Dangdut singer that I hate so much!
If she told me that my face like Keanu Reeve, maybe I will fly very-very high!
But… I am very like the shoes that she wears, Reebok! The sporty girl and the
brave girl was the fit term of she is. To bad she has a average face, and she’s
not my type! Hahaha..
What?
140/100??? Oh my…oh my…
17:00-00:00
My
beloved wife again and again only smiles while I was telling the high of my
blood pressure! And…Let’s go dinner honey!
Wednesday, 24 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Time
to o Jakarta is 08:30, and has time to take care and joke with my son.
And
the Avanza that used to be picking the “handsome” up, show up. And the
driver…hahahaha… as same as annoy with my driver! So, I better sleep than heard
and watch the annoying of him! And..Traffic jam! Oh my beloved country… I love
you so much!
Fortunately,
the auditee more fun than yesterday! And… psst…psst..psst. There’s other
jasmine that the fragrant and the color as beautiful as my sweetie! And she flash out staring at me, and directly
look away when I see her! Semprulll.. And I did know my sweetie has 6th
sense, she SMS me when I little admire the Jasmine in front of me. Hahaha… How
beautiful of my life. She told me that her beetle will threat a surgeon to lift
up his tonsil at Siloam Hospital. And of course today he accompany her beetle
to go there and also ask my permission that she will not join at my office
tomorrow. Hmhmhm…
Dinner
at Cikarang Baru, the region has change so much. 5 years ago it only ordinary
regency but now has become highly develop business area! The culinary area, the
bank, the office has growth advance. And while I was passing by my previous
company, my heart still beat wildly. Maybe in this company my life as family
man started.
On
the way to going home…I face another traffic jam! I just wonder how strong the
residences of the big city Jakarta were facing this situation everyday!
17:00-00:00
Practically, I just
arrived at my home sweet home at 22:30 sharp! How crazy it was! And my stomach has
already full to feel it.
Thursday, 25 October 2012
00:00-17:00
I feel
like lonely in the crowded area but I talk so much in the loneliness. The
annoying of the hooked, the absence of my sweetie, the super duper superior
jerk and the bad of my tempered!
The crowded of sharing in feast of Hajj, I
still lonely in the complicated calculation if it should to or if it shouldn’t
to. I still confuse with self commentary or self understanding of sharing. I
still busy to judge others comparing with attitude that sometime contradictive
with their religion living. And I’m still so arrogant to confess whatever
others did, I should not make it my excuse did not into the crowded of sharing
in Hajj feast (sacrificing a goat or cow).
And make
me more annoying when my SMS did not reply with my sweetie! Hahaha…
But in few
minute or…hmhm hours’ maybe, my sweetie just replied my SMS and convey why she
did not reply my SMS, because ran out of balance. No matter at all, I just
wondering why.
17:00-00:00
Sound of
”takbir” echoed everywhere. I do not know when the time is right, I was always
shaking when I heard it. Moreover I do not and have not plan to sacrifice of
goat this time. My arrogance still did not accept the sincere of others. For
me, most of them only show off what the kind that they did. For me, the kind
not should been show, but infused up to the bottom of my heart to understand
the essence of sharing. The spirit of feeling they suffered at least. And I
more sink to the darkness of self understanding.
Friday, 26 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Today is
Hajj Feast! Hmhm… That calling did not passing through into my heart yet! Even
thinking about that, I did not! What can I say; indeed the calling did not
called or tickles my conscience. Let it flow… but when!
I, my sons did Eid Pray. And… I feel
embarrasses when I heard only one cow that sacrifice today in that mosque. Only
one cow! It is not as compare as the big size of the mosque. Did all people
have the thinking as I was? How shame it was!
Hahahaha… more embarrassing that I also got the part of meat,
it misplaced or what, I do not understand at all. When I came home from downtown, my neighbor
gives meat to my beloved wife. She said that the meat from my neighbor who
sacrificing today.
17:00-00:00
Making
satay and barbeque!
Saturday, 27 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Rainy all
day! Fortunately company car did not use, so I can attend to my son school
meeting. From the long and long boring speech, finally the school asks for
additional fund! Weeeks!
Spending
all day in the rainy day! Eat…eat and eat.
And my son
Juang seemly bore, so… lets go for walk. In the hard rain, all of my families
go to down town. Like usual, window shopping!
17:00-00:00
My beloved
wife made spaghetti that just bought today. Sink with TV show while we were
enjoyin spaghetti plus pop corn! Coincidentally the Harry Potter and Deathly
Hallows part 2 were showing at HBO. Just like in the cinemas!
Sunday, 28 October 2012
00:00-17:00
After take
care of my plant, take a bath, take a breakfast and continued sit in front of
my TV set! Beginning with the full time reaction of English Premiere
Liege, continued with Formula One qualifying, Moto GP race day and finished
with Formula One racing day! My sons, my beloved wife, no one dare to disturb
me, even my youngest son Juang!
17:00-00:00
This
evening is my turn to entertain my family because this afternoon I already
pampered my self with TV show. Mall of Serang is the destination. Dinner at
Solaria finally.
Monday, 29 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Today I go to office together with my sweetie,
but my spirits go down instead! What's going on with me?
And... hmhmhm. Usually I in fantastic
enjoyable when I see my sweetie, but today my hearts did not drum in instead!
And I do not pay attention enough while my sweetie was telling how the surgeon
of his beetle and how exclusive of the hospital. I do not understand with me
today. Was it because of my feeling about Hajj Feast or what, it's curious and
unusual!
That's
the nature of the devil! Cocky, arrogant self-will abilities, in fact it will be
concur and dead by the ability of the human who have brains and conscience!
Unfortunately the people who have a brain and a conscience already friends with
demon, moreover overreact beyond the Satan did!
And I do not care if you also assumed me just like a Satan! The more you
look the more sick of I am.
And
still and still wonder to myself, what’s wrong with me. My passion, my adorers
even my lust completely gone! Was it because of him or what? I do not even
know. It’s caused my sweetie little wonder and curious with my behavior today.
Sorry my sweetie…
17:00-00:00
I
have been visited by old friend. Hmhmhm… after long chatting and memorizing the
nostalgic of we were, finally he told me the problem and difficulties of him!
How bad he was. The business of him was collapsed. Fortunately his wife has
been working at the shoe factory right now, but as a man, he shamed with this
condition. But what can I help or do? Will he be temporary worker at shut down
maintenance? Unexpected, he will! OK, I will tell to the boss of shut down
maintenance tomorrow. Almost 22:00 he just went home. And the lessons of it,
it’s proven that the life is like wheel. We must fight when we’re on bottom but
do not forget we should fight when we’re on top!
Tuesday, 30 October 2012
00:00-17:00
When
I arrived at my office, I directly met the shut down maintenance boss.
Alhamdulillah he still needs more temporal employees to meet shut down
maintenance job. The requirements were also simple, only ID and photo. But…
while I was telling him by phone, his ID was expired! Oh my…oh my…
Every
time I will think something to review, every time I already got the consequence
of what I was thinking to be review. Hmhmhm…
17:00-00:00
My
hair was cut by my beloved wife. It’ almost 5 year my hair was always cut by my
beloved wife. Because, the result as what I want. Not too short and not too
long, stagnant. Over with my expected, I just order to my beloved wife to cut
my hair. And this activity also can be as my café! Caused I can tease my
beloved wife. It’s a beautiful moment that I can get with my beloved wife.
Joking, teasing even pretending she as a whore and I was a customer! Hahaha…
Continued
dinner…, “sayur asem”
Wednesday, 31 October 2012
00:00-17:00
Associate
with the fresh of dawn, I went to Jakarta. Fortunately the dawn was so
beautiful, so it can hide my boring inside.
On the way to Jakarta, I met 2 car accidents in highway.
Behave…behave…behave. Like the driver
who got us to Jakarta, sucks!
Owwwh…
Will I deny the input that we will get is depending on what the output that
we’ve done! I little surprise with the confession of other in the way he got
the output from other. It’s not as what I imagine at all! Even in the opposite
way. I think “someone” was a good but turns out, “someone” is manifestation of
the fox!
Internal
audit… boring!
I
concern that my good friends, my good bosses, my good colleagues were thorn one
by one by the sneaky and foxy people! 25 years of dedication was nothing and
fly like dust because the sneaky and foxy people! I can not hold my tears;
gather in the corner of my eyes and finally melting into my cheeks while my
good boss was lamenting to me. How evil, sneaky, foxy of the man that my good
boss complaint. It just because the tyranny of the mouth! A few time ago, my
sweetie have warn me when against or facing the sneaky and the foxy. Now, again
I was proffered the fact that indeed I must aware and careful with this people.
And there’re a lot!
I
just can say…I do, when my good boss asks me a little help to get what will be
his rights when resigned. 25 years you
know? 25 years of his dedication is nothing! It just because…
I
wonder, are they happy with what they have done? By cheating, sneaking, and
foxing others?
Wow…!
There’s a lot of fragrant surrounding my nose! Alhamdulillah…
17:00-00:00
My
beloved wife only tongue-tied when I told her about my concern. It was too bad.
Poor of my good boss was. And she reminds me more careful facing those people.
Thursday, 1 November 2012
00:00-17:00
The
first day of November and the first day I undergo the strange commitment with
my sweetie!
And
curious…BUMS! There’s a chaos today because of the forbidden relationship of
woman and man! Others were sick concerning of they do. No shame and dare show off their lust in
public, even in parking yard! Maybe for them is passion and love, but in social
norm, what they have done is disgusting! And I still wonder, they too dumb show
their affair in public! So, what have they got? BUMS! Others who has sick to
see what they have done, has report to the brother’s of the real couple of
them! And now “she” ask me her permit to go home! Blonyon…blonyon… your tear is very-very
late! How dumb of you are. But I still
not sure you will change. As usual, with your guile, you always cheat and get
the terrific excuses to your husband. And still your husband as a loser and
dumber, even the dumbest of husband in the world!
Hahahaha…
it wasted time, wasted energy and wasted of emotion. You know what, the family
of Blonyon husband who has tell the affair, even has a victim! Her husband
defends Blonyon instead! How magic of she was! Oh my… poor of family. With the
fact, make us (all colleagues in this office) more careful and as possible as
close our eyes, plug our ear and try to tend Blonyon did not exist! Stay away from Blonyon business. Only wait
and see the consequence of this. And I think all mankind especially as a man
has passion or wanting to cheat and feel other fragrant. But with the two bit
show from Blonyon, emerge the strange question among us, Are they smart and
have power of magic or Blonyon’s husband is one of the dumbest people in the
world? And who cares? For me, I’ve got the lessons that interlope
is very-very risky! Beware!
Yes
sweetie, do not look at me in that way…
17:00-00:00
I
only told to my beloved wife what was happen today. And behind this situation,
my beloved wife also more understand concerning my “play” with sweetie. Play as
admirer, play as friendship and play as the actor and actress in the stage of commitment!
Friday, 2 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Incredible
of strong, strange, lust and itchy woman! Blonyon was acting nothing happen at
all in her. So, why we should care and wasted time and energy for her business?
Freaks! To bad, even Blonyon has a good
side; loving, honest, support, easy to turn to for help, light hand, but was
covered by her lust. I do not know it caused by or influence by her cheat
couple. Because I little know the personality of her couple, but like I say
what I care!
Gossips
all day! Boring… it was disturbing my joy today, even my sweetie also plunged
in it! Not a celebrity but emerging the gossip that more stormy than
celebrity’s gossips! Sucks!
17:00-00:00
Nothing
at all!
Saturday, 3 November 2012
00:00-17:00
My
Sweetie sent SMS that she not overtime today. She told me yesterday will
overtime today. But her child got fever. Yes! So, I can overtime today! Hahaha…
Not intend to avoid or something, if she in Saturday overtime, she always in
well dressed! It make me more difficult to keep my eyes will not to glance how
beauty she was. So, if she has planned to got overtime on holiday, I as force
as try will not attend!
Take
overtime for a while, because my beloved wife just called to me that my son
Juang was fussy and did not want to eat.
Curios, lately my son Juang is very-very close to me, if I’m in home, he
stick it to me all over time. It’s OK,
a little help to my beloved wife; at least I light her energy while she’s
taking care of my son. So, let’s get home! To bad, right now just 16:00, the
time that’s not enough to get the 4th hour of overtime.
Hold
my son Juang while watching the herd of buffalos in the right side of my home.
And like always, Juang brandishing his finger to call the buffalos. Thanks God.
17:00-00:00
Another
sinking with the TV shows. We can not spend the weekend, because the car used
for picket. Poor of us, right?
Sunday, 4 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Take
exercise, and then taking care of my plant. Accompany my beloved wife get
“botok” cooking ingredients. Botok? It’s a kind of Javanese food. It made from
young coconut mixed with some vegetables and anchovy, finally wrapped with
banana’s leaves. It has a unique taste,
and usually strengthens the fart! Haha..
So,
I mixed those ingredients with my hands, my beloved wife prepare the cooking
needs. The stinky Sunday, because one of
the ingredients is “lamtoro/petai china) is a kind of shrubs of the family
Fabaceae (= Leguminosae, legumes). It brought to Indonesia many centuries ago
especially to Java for the purpose reforestation and avoid landslides.
Hmhmhm…
there was a gap in terms of translating one's attitude or behavior. It turned
again to the nature of someone. There will be not too far in interpreting the
behavior of others by the nature of theirs. So, it nature if the persons who
have similar or at least has a same interest will be a friends. It’s curious if
between two or more persons has difference of nature can be a friends! The
answers maybe there’s one of them is patient, full of understanding. Do those
needs for friendships, don’t we? Patient, understanding, caring, even share
each other are the most need for friendships. If you do not want to patient,
understand, caring or even share each other, do not be a friends of others!
17:00-00:00
Huurrayyy…,
Kimi Raikonen won again. Salute to you!
Monday, 5 November 2012
00:00-17:00
I
hate Monday! Hahaha… maybe work could be the best place for me on Monday if I
already have a way to make it. Maybe in the way I feel be part of the tribe of
working. Having done the tribal bonding to gear up for enjoyable, while others
does not have. Can I? It depends on my
own, right? So, why I should care to other business that make the feeling of
that more step away from me? Just be concerned on my own business.
Wedeew…
My Shaggy Hair Boss told seriously that overcast for next contract is not like
what we expected. Employer Company tomorrow will convey their next year
condition. Market will decrease concerning there’s customer was locked up. So,
what can we say? We only try the best effort to them some cost down. It mean
profit orientation little lower than this year.
17:00-00:00
Thanks
God, my eldest son Ega has aware his responsibility. In fact now his on 9th
grade, so next year he will through the scary National Exams! I only help show
the clue or teach the things that have my experience when I was in his age.
Hmhm… It has a little different. When in my era, it can say there’s no
involving of the parents. But now, we as a parents are always involving in the
crowded of our children school.
And…
Juang act like intruder! Annoying his brother! Crawling over here over there,
and where’s Igi? Aha…! He sinks with the cartoon show! He showed unhappy expression when I told him
to study. How beautiful happy that I
felt.
Tuesday, 6 November 2012
00:00-17:00
My
youngest Juang start to have a habit while every time I when to my office, he’s
always crying.
My
super duper superior started babbling!
And
he continued his cocky covering with foolery in meeting with client staff. If
you do not fully understand just keep silent! You look dumb, you know?
17:00-00:00
Maybe
I must cut my hair little shorter to little help our restlessness in recent
week. My beloved wife help cut the back side of may hair, the rest I cut on my
own. The result is… my beloved wife told me that I look older! Hahaha…. It
means I look younger with long hair. Just wait for next 2 month my dear.
All
oh my son also laughing on me with my new hair, they said I has changed!
Wednesday, 7 November 2012
00:00-17:00
I
hope we always consistent wit our commitment. Bismillahiromanirohim..
This
is the laziest day of my life. This is the top of confusing of how I can learn,
judge, wonder, curious and shocking concerning of human beings. Are they
humans? I little don not think so! Even I was judged by people also not a
human, I do not care. Today I was showed clearly the dividing of human that my
religion said as a perfect creature in the universe, with the animal! Was it my
complaint? Once again I do not care! Or I just talked and did not do anything?
I do not care even! This is it; this is the time that has tumbled my spirit
kiss into the ground! What others think
if someone willing to give advice or a clue to solve the problem, but those
advice or clue turn back to against you instead? Which one as the dumbest? If
the answer or others has judge you as the dumbest, what will you do? What will
you do, my friends? Do you still willing to give them advice or being the
terrifying skeptics’ persons? That was
being my restlessness today! And still and still I wonder to my self, who am I?
Was I wrong if currently I always see the false of everything have the view
negatively concerning the horizontal relationships? Until this second, this minute, this hours
even this century I still do not get the answer religiously concerning the
vertical relationships, in my entire life I always been shown the jerk of
horizontal relationship instead! Oh… poor of my. False condition, false caring,
and false friends, false…false…false… But
I still do believe the goodwill from the bottom of my heart! This is the only
guidance of my.
17:00-00:00
Try
to show happy face when I was invites dinner with Japanese who is training in
my office.
And
I still remember and it has been huge sediment in my heart what has been said
to me from others. How can he say like that to me? Fine! Let’s see.
Thursday, 8 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Deep
Inhale the fresh air in the morning, 10 second take a breath, 10 second hold it
and 10 second release it. Inhale, hold and exhale. Inhale, hold and exhale. And
try to relax… This is the way I remove the burden in my head. How about
praying? I do not know. I feel better on my own way.
Little
help to shut down my annoying.
17:00-00:00
Hahahaha….
My youngest beloved son Juang has a respond when I scolded when done wrong.
Alhamdulillah… in this evening my entire family was been showed funny behavior
of my youngest son. Just like my eldest son Ega, he seems never run out of his
energy.
Friday, 9 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Day
by day more difficult to choose what I will do wisely, it’s getting worst. The
faith of there does no prove at all concerning others faith. Are they in well religion? But why their
attitude ore worst than others who has not religion? Instead, sometime atheist
person are wiser than religion person. It makes me skeptical.
Hmhm…
this Friday sermons was piercing my hearts. The preachers told if someone only
believe God but did not will to execute His commands and avoid His prohibitions
is tantamount to the devil! Devils truly believe to God even the Devil is
believer than human, because the Devil has watched with own eyes the creation
of human being. But the Devil has been dissident to God. Devil protested to God
why should to submit to human. So, in other words, I did not far away with the
Devil! I truly believe there’s Almighty God, but until today, I have not been
will to obedient to all God order!
But,
the strange commitment is fine without any harm of it.
17:00-00:00
What?
…………………………..
Saturday, 10 November 2012
00:00-17:00
The
Heroes day, the different era the way to commemorate; now most of Indonesians
are indifferent, we did not to care enough concerning the struggling of
previous Indonesian heroes. For us, we
are hero of our own family. Struggling
everyday for rupiahs!
Who
cares? Better prepare for overtime today, moreover my sweetie also come in to
get overtime.
Hmhmhm…
women in red! You’re look brave with red
dress, your youth ray more blind me! But… oh my sweetie… why you should those
shoes? Those shoes ruin our beauty. That shoe has shown the low fashion senses
of you are! High heels with fat models! It does not fit at all with your red
dress. I wish I was been your advisory mode, I will throw that shoes to the
gutter! Oh my sweetie…, you are beauty but did not has a sense of fashion! This
mouth actually did not patient to say how bad worst fashion of you are. But…
hehe. Who was she? So, today I only look
the upper of my sweetie, so when I came home together with her, my eyes always
keep to the face of my sweetie!
17:00-00:00
Make
another activity in Saturday night, searching low budget of culinary!
Sunday, 11 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Attending
a wedding reception one of my boss at Head Office, and only me who has invited
to his son wedding, little curious why he only invited me? Who cares, so I can
refreshing with my beloved wife and my son go to Jakarta. After attending the
party, we try to continue low budged culinary in Jakarta!
17:00-00:00
Almost
21:00 we just arrived at my home sweet home.
We can get low budget culinary, even my wallet was destroyed by fancy
restaurant at Senayan City! Hahaha…, so for dinner, we order fried rice like
always!
Monday, 12 November 2012
00:00-17:00
So,
should I say “wow”? Haha… I only thanks that I still got the trust from others
and the consequences are… WOW!!
Actually
I hate this day so much, but curious I have received so much fortune in this
day. The first, like always from Boss, 2nd from my colleague and the
last for the best is… MONEY!!! I did not
care what I’ve dreamed last night, this afternoon I’ve got invite from the
wealth source of my colleague. And usually he does not only invite, but also
give something that could make me fly so high!!
17:00-00:00
Little
worry face from my beloved wife, but turn to happy face when I told that I’ve
got fortune today! Woman! Hahaha…
3
portions of Rib Barbeque were eaten out by my beloved son! I and my beloved
wife only saw the brutally feast!
Thanks
God! My youngest son Juang already able to stand on his own!
Tuesday, 13 November 2012
00:00-17:00
The
smile is different, the gleaming of her eyes is different, and the way you walk
also different. Please do not make me different!
Hmhm…
after what happen a few weeks ago, Blonyon little bit change! I just wonder why
you just aware concerning what you have done. Why you do not act from the
beginning? Are you aware that cheating should be done by act like cheater too?
So, why do you pompously act like a spouse? Do not you know that both of you
are cheating? Freaks! Maybe I will do a cheating while I’ve broken my commitment
and there’s a big chance to do it. But I think I will as possible as hide my
cheat from public! Not shows off the dumb of you are!
My
sweetie asks to me how to make passport. And…hahaha, When I told her diploma or
birth certificate as the one of requirement, her face look gloomy! Apparently
all important personal documents were missing!
Diploma, birth certificate, wedding certificate were missing. She better
kept her clothes, her fashion accessories than kept her personal document!
Hahaha…woman! So, she asks for permit to search those documents.
Psst..sst..sst… because she plan want to
go Singapore with her accounting colleague.
If possible, actually I also want to go there, but…. Dreaming!
This
is serious, if I have little more money; I want to go to the country in the
region of South East Asia like Myanmar, Vietnam even Philippines. Yes! This is it;
I have not want to go umroh or pilgrimage like my religion Islam obligation
yet. Still and still I prefer to go South East Countries.
17:00-00:00
I was
invited by Lucky Duper Boss to go dinner with client, but this time I must go
the pediatrician for immunizations of my youngest son, Juang. Appear the
disappointed face of my Lucky duper Boss, but my son more important. Sorry…
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
00:00-17:00
The
report today, all personal document of my sweetie did not find! Oh my sweetie,
poor of you. So, you can not go abroad then. And now you are unmarried, because you have
not wedding certificate! And… marry me! Wuaahahahaha…..
Internal
audit! Let’s go.
And
there’s a secret admirer of me dare to express her admire. Hehehe… strange but
that’s life. Sometime you are extremely admiring to others but no respond at
all, but in the same time you have been admired by others without any aware
from you. And more difficult if you are
admiring each other but it was barricaded by a holy commitment! Life goes on
and let the strange commitment continued.
Hmhmhm…
the rich get richer, the poor get more poor, the lucky get luckier and I only as
spectator in a crowded of fraud in the wealth!
17:00-00:00
I’m
feeling contradiction. Showing the happiness of my sons, I feel worry inside. Fear
of inability to accompany them to grow. Fear of inability to happy them; and
the most fear that I feel is… I can not watch them grow!
I
have a kind of flower in Indonesian term called WIjaya Kusuma flower, or like
others say the flower of God! My flower is always blossom in the end of year.
Jus in this night, I was waiting the moment of my Wijaya Kusuma flower was
blossom in this night. Still I can not catch the moment. Like the others say,
if I can catch that moment, the fortune will come to me! So, I spend this night
with a silly hope! Hahaha.. And what I’ve been hope? I can feel the fragrant of
my sweetie!
Thursday, 15 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Happy
Islamic new year!
And
continued internal audit….
And
nothing to tell… in other word, I can split my focus. I really over time today,
not pretending or just wasted time to get earn from over time. Budgeting,
making new contract have spend my whole time.
Friday, 16 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Thanks
God, the flower was dying but with my patient that flower grew again. That
flower was taken by me from my neighbor. When I visit to my neighbor house, I
saw it almost died. And when I ask to keep it, my neighbor does not mind at
all. Even he feels glad that I can take care of that flower.
So,
should I concern about your problem? Then, can you answer my big question?
Should I? Just take a little time to
reflect yourself, are you aware what you have done? Freaks! Just remember one thing… What the lie
you have said is powerful prayer of yourself.
17:00-00:00
Gloomy
face was covering me while I came home. Maybe my beloved wife has tired looking
at me day by day with gloomy face. And I do not know either what make me like
that in the current week. Is it consequence of strange commitment or indeed I
have tired to face others who are difficult to predict. Sometime they sweet
like a sheep sometime they rude and mean like a nasty wolf. I do not know what others judging me, but at
least I always not harm others for all I have done or I will do.
I
toke a lessons to my eldest son, how to solder the electric device.
Saturday, 17 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Searching
low budget breakfast culinary with my whole family, and what we have got? Not
far from “nasi uduk”! It is one of kind
traditional food from Jakarta/betawi that made from white rice and steamed
with coconut milk, and spiced with nutmeg, cinnamon, ginger, lemongrass and
pepper leaves. “Nasi uduk” is served with fried chips, fried tofu, omelet /
fried eggs that have been sliced, shredded, fried onions, fried chicken,
cucumber and the most popular in Indonesian food is… sambal!
Continued
to go to beach, free beach exactly. Hahaha… without any cost to get in, just
park the car and… splash into waves, we can enjoy the whole day in that beach.
Weather was a bit cloudy, so we can play with waves almost all day long! Only
our stomach protests that can make us get out from the beach.
17:00-00:00
And
still searching low budget culinary for dinner! And… nasi uduk again! But for
dinner we eat nasi uduk with variety of meat.
Maybe
my eldest son miss the situation thrust each other while all of us are sleeping
in the same bed, so tonight he sleep in the same bed with me, my beloved wife,
Igi and Juang! This condition sometime make me dropping my happy tears when I
far away from them. Thanks. But I little worry concerning my sons. Both of Ega
and Igi do not enthusiastic to go out with their friends. They prefer stay at
home to spend weekend! Is the comfort home making them lazy to go out, or..? I
just remember comparing in his age, I already been familiar smoker! But, Ega?
Sunday, 18 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Like
a plan on Friday that we will go city square in the Sunday dawn. I, my beloved
wife and all of my sons went to city square at 5:00! Wow! There’s plenty of people who already
there! Searching for car park is difficult, but finally got the space near of
city square. Because of Sunday morning from 5:00 to 9:00 was car free day at
surrounding of city square, we should take a walk to go there.
Jogging,
exercising, even joking was coloring city square. All people showed happy face.
Of course my youngest son Juang also get through in the crowded of joy! Sunday
morning joy!
After
get tired to get some exercise and jogging, we continued take chicken noodle
for breakfast.
Almost
in the middle of day, we satisfied and go home. Take shower and then… take a
nap!
17:00-00:00
Enjoy
TV show
Monday, 19 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Make
curious, why others always act like that? Just talk about the cover that they
do not really understand instead! How do you really know the content if you do
not know the cover? How do you know the hidden of content if you just see the
cover? How do you keep the content if you do not understand at all if only
opened the cover? And just remember, beginning of something is due to
something. There’s no line if there is not two dots!
Better
feel the misery of life than joy in the top of suffering others. What the
meaning of successful if sacrificing others, what the meaning of promise if it
for been broken, what the meaning of peace if it for making a war! And the
deepest sadness of mine if I am the friends of others but I cheat them in every
chance!
17:00-00:00
Not
enough take a breath, my beloved wife rushing told me that my youngest son
Juang able to say… “tuh” while pointing something and the most thing that make
my beloved wife proud is, Juang able to change TV channel with remote! She do
not care at all when I explained to her maybe Juang able to change TV channel
coincidentally. But my beloved wife also told me that the kid who same age with
Juang already walked, whereas my son Juang just stands with his own. It’s Ok I think. Because Ega and Igi also
very late in walking themselves. Ega just walked when his 15 month, he so
active instead. Igi was able to walk little quicker than Ega, Igi able to walk
on 13 month. So, to satisfying my beloved son, I trained my youngest son Juang
how to walk. She very worry Juang in his age has not able to walk.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
00:00-17:00
I feel
more relieved and take spirit. I try to ignore what others who always feel
right. I also have the right to feel right, right? But what the meaning of
right if is always pushing others to keep it.
Should
I asking to all of you, is what mine is my own? Would I give it to you? No
matter what you say no matter what you do. Should I? We are not alone and never
walk alone. You still need help from somebody!
I
wish I can throw the entire bad thing in my mind. External cause, internal
cause and all bad sources lead me through the working sphere. Al day long, all
time long even all second long I heard, felt, saw those situations. They were vicious virus that can infect as
speed as second! Over and over time my conscience was eroded by them. Now, I
behave almost as same as they are! Ignorant, apathetic, indifferent were
covering me. It just because the feeling that has been hiding and keeping not exploding
for year accompanying me, can not survive to keep explode. Now, it
explodes! I think I start to confess
that I was so dumb! Or literally patient! But, my deepest conscience still and
still let others say to me as a dumb but I always agreed and welcoming a truly
comfort and peace inside. Yes, I only complaining and complaining. It natural
in the way I force to agreed with my conscience. I a hundred percent believe
that happiness come from misery first. Let others judge me based on what they
want. And let the gravel of ill will sediment in my deepest heart. Just let
them sleep and do not you dare wake them up! Not with you say, not with you do.
Those
feeling can not spray with the fragrant of my sweetie instead! The ill will
inside have concurred my sweet feeling to my sweetie. Oh my… apparently the ill
will sicker than toothache! Even my sweetie almost erase from my mind because
my ill will! Sorry sweetie. Yes, the things have told to you a few weeks ago
were attacking me now. And it’s impossible to tell to you again. Let me heal
own my own. It so complicated to tell and to solve. I also did not tell to my beloved wife what
was annoying inside.
17:00-00:00
I
can find the way to let my ill will out! I run to get pleasure into my stomach
to temporary erase my ill will. The consequence is… my weight go higher than
last week! Fried egg, fried rice and fried chicken get into my stomach. The
feeling still burn my head up! Poor of
my beloved wife has wondered. I’m sorry…
Wednesday, 21 November 2012
00:00-17:00
I
hope my feeling more comfort than yesterday. My sweetie, my beloved wife,
please guides me to pass this terrible feeling. It also stabs my spirit to get
work. More over in the end of year, my head need to finish extra duty.
Together
attending to my colleague salvation of his house, I feel little peace when my
sweetie sits side by side with me in car. I let my mind fly away from my ill
will for a while. And I like the perfume that was used by my sweetie. Not
talking, just sweet silence that I feel. Thanks…
Another
sweet attention from my sweetie was showed to me. The dishes from colleague
were tasted more delicious with the spicy attention from my sweetie. Hmhm…and
again sweet silence was feeling while my sweetie sat beside me.
Not
bad to little erase my ill will.
17:00-00:00
Happy
face and felt joy when I came home.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
00:00-17:00
Apparently
we have a habit always view anything based on only one side. Even based on own
interest. And again today in Cilegon was been rallying from union. I think was
enough Regional Minimum wages as same as Jakarta region. But with the reason
Cilegon is industrial city; they want or demand the Cilegon Minimum Wage higher
than Jakarta district. Whereas with the
increasing of minimum wage more than 20% is beyond the logical number of
budgeting, even if comparing with last year minimum wage, they demand up more
50% from last year!
Now
let's look at the productivity of workers in general. The survey, conducted in garment
factory in Indonesia and Hong Kong, with the involvement of workers who equal in
educational background, same training, same machines with the same speed
conveyor belt, apparently workers in Indonesia produces 9 shirts in 8 hours,
were laborers in Hongkong result 18 pieces shirts. Wow, 2x! Or we are just
half?
Another
fact in the automotive industry such Toyota, workers at Toyota plants in Japan
were able to assemble one unit car every 6 minutes, meaning an hour they able
to produce 10 units of the car, while Toyota plant in Indonesia is only able to
produce one unit of the car in 1.5 hours or 90 minutes. So far, 1: 15! That's
why Indonesia called soft nation, while the countries of China, Korea, and
Japan called Taft nation. OK! If you
also compare with “x” factor make it your question, would you please I ask to
you, why the do not have “x” factor???? That’s a big problem for us! There’s a
lot of “x” factors!!
So,
let’s try to think more comprehensively as our habit. Not even on own interest
or own necessity. Just remember something is due to something, action reaction,
cause and effect.
And
the more annoying me is… caused of that, I should revision the budget!! My sweetie completely erased this day!!
17:00-00:00
Just
try to finish my work at home!
Friday, 23 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Yeaah…
just pamper yourself with the stupidity!
Thanks
God, Minimum Wage for Cilegon area was determined as much as IDR 2.2 millions.
For worker/labor was indeed favorable, but for entrepreneurs was misery. That
was view based on own interest or own costs. But let try to think more
comprehensive, let try to think for general interest, public interest or try to
think action reaction. And try to always reflect ourselves when faced the
things that need deeper thoughts.
Hopefully
all of us always grateful for the revenue increases and heart felt calm in the
works, so expect nothing else but more concentration to improve productivity in
order to promote and develop the company. No more rallying again.
The
interest for the leader of Union who maybe will run for Member of Parliament
may get sympathy from labors considered to have successfully fought Minimum
Wage successfully. But if you have been
in there, please do not forget your roots. Labor’s dream was have
representative in the parliament for along time maybe will come true. So,
always mandate us as labors who have been representative by you.
For
the Mayor, it is not easy to make decisions amid pressure from different
interest of two parties. It needs tremendous guts and high experience to make
this decision. Hopefully, your decision is a decision that sincere from the
heart of the most in as a leader. Not because of the political contract with
labor. If so.. Hopefully the God will always protect you in any condition in
journey of your life.
For
employers, please be patient, because there is outstanding love from God behind
your patience. You must trust and believe the only Minimum Wage that you must
cost, will get back with more benefits than just Rp.2, 2jt. And for foreign
investment like I have been working to you for 15 years, please do not go.
Please understand me. We definitely different with Chinese, Japanese,
Vietnamese or even Malaysians, we are Indonesian with unique habit.
And
for me…… need more energy to meet our budget with the increasing of Minimum
Wage more than 49%!!!! I am indeed as a
labor but in the other hand I must finish my main duty as the budgeter! God, my beloved wife, my sons and my sweetie…
please guiding me!
17:00-00:00
My
beloved wife directly cheered when I told her the number of increasing of
Cilegon Minimum Wage. It is exactly same
with my sweetie’s expression when I told her by SMS. I only grinded and splash
over in my head the shadow of company profit will only 15% for next year. Very
low under psychological number of healthy profit of company at least 20%!
Even
I can not erase the thinking in my head to reduce some cost in 2013. It is
impossible to reduce worker salary. I
wish I am not a budgeter…
Saturday, 25 November 2012
00:00-17:00
My
beloved wife only show me gloomy face when I told her that I should work today,
because she has a plan ask me to accompany her to shopping monthly necessity.
Sorry…
I
drown into working especial for budget. I have truly have responsibility that
actually should be not mine. But like always, I toke those responsibility with
great propose… NOTHING! But I really believe our effort will get the gain that
will be given to me by Almighty. Amin…
Finally
I have got formula to earn company profit 20%. I hope my Shaggy Hair Boss will
agree with my formula.
17:00-00:00
I
want to earn maximum over time this day, but the shadow of my youngest son
Juang is dancing on my mind. Let’s go home!
Sunday, 25 November 2012
00:00-17:00
I do
not know the caused of my lazy in this Sunday afternoon. So, I continued sleep
till the middle of the noon! I woke up and directly lunch then. Oh my…
So,
no impression at all in this Sunday! Even I continued sleep after got lunch!
17:00-00:00
I
just woke up at 18:15!! Others go to the mosque or conducting the ritual that
must do concerning my religion obligation, but me? Just woke up!
I
was leaving it almost for half year! I only did the Friday ritual!
Ad
what I have done this evening? Nothing! Even to get bath or watching
television, I only sat and daydreaming! And… once again, I show the love of my
beloved wife. Gently she told me to get bath soon.
Hmhmhm…
Monday, 26 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Little
woke up late in this morning, it because I have strange dream. Whatever, I will
start my boring day and force to get my hidden spirit…
Thanks
God, my Shaggy Hair Boss has agreed without any question about my formula
concerning new budget. And, like always, my super duper boss showed a funny
tend to dumb face while I and My Shaggy Hair Boss were discussing the budget. Look dumber when he convey the things that no
connection at all with the budget.
Sometime I wish he get pension soon!
The
cheering of my sweetie is still indicating to me concerning the new Minimum
Wage of Cilegon Area. And indeed the number is very favorable.
Making
budget finished, continued conducting annual performance appraisal. Loyal,
discipline, initiative are not measurable area. They need truly objectivity.
What the meaning of objectivity? Only our conscience will able to answer the
question.
17:00-00:00
I
explained to my entire colleague what the meaning of objectively in performance
appraisal. There’s a chart or curve that can push someone to get objective. It
is not depend on budget or depend on the cookies will to share, but it’s about
objectively. Because the chart avoid appraisers get leniency. Tendency appraisers give a higher value than
it should not to. High values give to impropriate. Also the chart avoid
appraisers are too "tight" (strictness) in providing value. Usually base on personal sentiment.
In
this moment I also little tickles their competency as a supervisor. How great I
was! They were speechless when I presented the actual condition in this
company. And maybe this is it; this is the show off singularity in this
company. And the most excitement that I received was… an expression from my
colleague concerning my explanation. They convey to other colleague and that
colleague conveyed to me the expression of I am. Thank you… and they clearly
understood that the chart is not connection with the budget at all, but guiding
us to get objectively in performance appraisal.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
00:00-17:00
My
plants day by day look healthy. I hope they can influence to my entire
activities. Positive chakra from the plant will dance with my positive chakra.
I hope…
Again!
It was attacking me now! But whatever,
even the seven seas flooded on my head, five continents push me down, I do not
care. Please, dance with your opportunity and let me see silently in the
tribune of stupidity. I still have a holly cure, my beloved wife, my sons and
my sweetie! The three of them always be my strength to join with your mud of
opportunity. Now I do not worry If three
of them are exists, maybe I will little concern if one of them is lost.
Try
to back track concerning of my colleague tracks!
17:00-00:00
The
persons, others or even I should think first if we will act. But, has it been
our custom? Freaks!!
I
was teaching my youngest son Juang to walk on his own.
Wednesday, 28 November 2012
00:00-17:00
Head
up, hands down, legs stand still. Let’s go to face unpredictable world,
unpredictable person and unpredictable fortune. Let’s pick them up!
And
then what I’ve got in this afternoon? Nothing! Like usual, like always and like
supposed to. Ordinary and very ordinary, and can I say today is yesterday or
maybe tomorrow is today? I still and still stand still tend to stagnant and
others still and still… and I just realize how beautiful of my life! Really! I
feel today, maybe yester or maybe tomorrow feel OK! So, what I will do? Like I
say, right now and for tomorrow and ever after I will maintain what I’ve got
yesterday, today and wish for tomorrow! Maintain, keep silent, keep humble,
keep been my self and keep friends who always keep the friends at least,
because keeping a friendships is like keep our commitment to my beloved wife.
It’s easier than it or even it’s harder than it. Just try, try to be real human
being. And I still have contradiction in my deepest heart, why we tremendous
effort not to eat the food or the drink contain alcohols that mention in Quran
is forbidden but with easy way we get fortune that it is not belong to us?
Translating something especially the doctrine of religions sometimes based on
own interest, own excusing and own opinion. No problem at all if the
translating for guiding ourselves, but it will be a never ending silly
discussion if it collides with others! So, right now I translated what I’ve
interested, what I’ve excused and what I’ve opinioned just for myself, just for
me and just for Dodi Suprapto. I will not influence others, I will not intrude
others and I will not force them become your translation! They’re all just for
me, just for me. But I very grateful if
others respect what’ve done because with sincere I will respect to all of you.
Simple…, but with deep reflection…. I ONLY TRY NOT BEING HYPROCATES! Bad is
bad, good is good. I’ll try to force do not making the bad excusing being the
good, and with sincere heart I will respect the good remain meaning of the
good. I will remove or making blur the bad and the good. Literally bad and good
very-very distinguish!
17:00-00:00
Identical
ritual, identical effort maybe will fill my whole life. I only try being what
will suppose to.
Thursday, 29 November 2012
00:00-17:00
When
I toke care of my plant, I like received enlightenment for the ideas making
vertical garden beside my house. Ah, not bad. New idea and new activities for
little forget my translation of life! And I have plan in my mind, I will
searching any literature or anything that can be my inspiration making vertical
garden. Its mean, I pretend to work but actually do not work at all! Just
searching and drowning in the internet world!!
My
preoccupation hanging out with Google was disrupted by boring integrated safety
meeting at Branch Office! Fortunately my super duper boss invite me to eat one
of my favorite food is BAKSO (meat ball)! It is so refresh my throat and then
sliding down into my greedy stomach!
17:00-00:00
Because
of I have eat plenty of meatball, I refuse when my beloved wife order me to get
dinner. Hehe…sorry! But like always, she did not accept what I’ve eat. So she
demand me to invite her eat meat balls too! OK, no problem. Let’s go…
Friday, 30 November 2012
00:00-17:00
End
day of November, and end day of my effort and my translating of life in
November. And re-start the routine activities tomorrow and the day after
tomorrow until I’ll take my last breath!
Hehehe…
in my ritual, in my obligation as a Muslim and be my little oasis in the entire
week that full of journey combat, again in the Friday sermon the preacher
convey intro correction to all of Muslim that the action and behavior follow
the guidance of the rule of Islam, both are say in Holly Quran or in accordance
with the role of Prophet Mohammad SAW only in the Mosque! But ten meters from
Mosque, most of Muslim act or behave like a Kafir or infidel! I think it right, right?
My
duty from this day rather relaxed, so I could continue writing in my personal
blog while I was finishing the regular job. The feelings of annoying also
little by little disappear from my head. But I still concern pay attention the
trigger of it. But that’s life, isn’t it? So Life goes on!
17:00-00:00
Almost three months I left my ritual. I believed in
Heaven and Hell, and I do believed life after death, but I still and still hard
to do what my religion supposed to prayer 5 times in the day. For me it’s so
hard to do. But I still sue is we pray 5 times in the day is a benchmark our
faith? Or it’s just my excused for my laziness to do pray 5 times in the day,
only God knows! But poor of my sons is infected by my habits! If there’s a
called from mosque to get pray, they have habit to ignore, just like I am! I
hope and wish my sons find the real truth concerning the religion what they
believe. Only wish and hope in the line of their growth.
Saturday, 1 December 2012
00:00-17:00
My
sweetie called in this morning that she wants to overtime today. OK, but too
bad I have plan to making simple vertical garden, so I can not see how fit she
was every time she used ordinary clothes. But I still do not agree if she use
fat high heel shoes! In my view, the woman who used fat high heel shoe will
look like a slut! Indeed, I hate the woman in fat high heel shoe! Even if she
or my beloved wife is wearing those shoes, I do not like either! But my sweetie very-very like with fat high
heel shoe, what can I say, she is just not mine! In other hand, my beloved wife
does not dare to use the kind of that shoe, because she is mine!
My
sweetie called me while I was driving with my beloved wife to buy bamboo as material
to make vertical garden. And like always my beloved wife still show gloomy eyes
every time or anything that connection with my sweetie. But trust me
sweetheart, it’s only it and this is it, only that.
2
pieces of bamboo have bought already, cutting every three of bamboo segment. And I start to make vertical garden.
Apparently not easy making a hole in every segment of bamboo, it need little
patient to make it, and finally I did not make a hole but chop those bamboo! It
easier than making a hole! It’s OK, because still able to use as plant pot! An
almost whole day I finally finished and completely install in my home side. I
only seed in the night then.
17:00-00:00
After
attending the salvation of my neighbor, I continued seed the kale. I hope it can
grow and will not been eat by buffalos!
Sunday, 2 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Sunday
dawn I start plant and care my new activities, vertical garden! And try plant
organic vegetable! For the first
experiment I continued seed a kale. If it succeeded I’ll plant mustard.
So many
wedding parties in this month, in this afternoon or even in this Sunday I must
attend 2 of wedding party! It’s OK; indeed this month is breeding seasons!
Fortunately my office car did not use for picket.
After
attending those parties, I with my entire sons go to the beach.
17:00-00:00
Waiting
for the godot! Hopeless!
Monday, 3 December 2012
00:00-17:00
The
first month we undergo strange commitment completely. And hard to do but must
to do if we want to achieve what we supposed do. And we believe and will commit
to leave the strange situation, and we also feel the comfort condition after
half month we did not do and sink in the strange situation and condition. Plus,
you convey to me you feel more comfort in this month. OK, let continues then.
Who
actually proper to be called as a leader? Is the man always being called “boss”
or the man is always being called “sir”?
For me no matter others call me, but indeed the term that others calling
us are personification of we are. Usually we called the boss if we have much
money and willing share to others with benefit, both who will give and who will
be given! But automatically we will call
“sir” or even only show a respect when others “help” us with sincere. No matter
the status is. And very distinguish typical of a boss and typical of a leader.
Sometimes
I see an absurd and foolish of other or even me are being tried to call a boss
or looking for others respect. Whereas
we are being respected by others very depend on what we have out! That’s a
life!
And
like just happened to me, actually who is the leader in my office if all of
them want to be called “boss”!! Weird!
17:00-00:00
And I
little worry concerning the way I educated my sons! Just what the way they are,
just what the want they are and just want the being they are; I little worry
what I’ve let grow just like they are will can not be a tight holder of they
are. Once again I only hope and try for
the best! These were what I feel in this evening. The happiness feels complete
as parents but in other hand I have tremendous responsibility accompany them to
grow up!
Tuesday, 4 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Blonyon
told me that has terrible ping-pong accident happen in the Serang-Merak
Highway. She said there’s driver of trailer still stuck in the trailer cabin
head! Firstly I did not believe because being liar is her trade mark for
excusing something, but after others colleagues have told a same story, I just
believed! That’s the consequences of you being a liar! Sorry!
I
felt this before, now I feel it again. No matter how hard I try this feeling
won’t end. Life goes on while it strikes again. And I did care what others
influence me or intrude to me. Only fear that I feel if I lost my faith in the
line of my journey of my heart. I hope it will make me strong.
Hard
rain! Unpredictable weather, the earth is getting old and the habitants are
getting wild and crazy. The crazier of habitants, the older of the earth and
the foolish of I am.
17:00-00:00
In
this chance and this situation, it is true the wanting to be closer with my
sweetie open widely. But I rather pull to other side for my goodness.
I
was on the way to back home in hard rain.
And flash out from my brain the shadow of my beloved wife. She’s rather
not well lately. She little worries about her body, little worry about her age
and little worry about my affection to her. And those feelings impact in our
sex life. My beloved wife so hesitant
and not confident while we were playing a doctor like usual. The consequence is
the frequency of playing doctor rather rare in the month! Whereas I do not mind
at all with her condition, but she always show me distrust of her self. It is
so disturbing us and must be solved.
Moreover I’d rather womanizer lately!
Wednesday, 5 December 2012
00:00-17:00
More
intents our communication by SMS! Almost every day my smart phone was massaged
by my thumb! Sometimes intersperse with SMS from my beloved wife! Although the
SMS only chat ordinary thing and do not chat concerning our feelings, but it
has being addicted me even her! And more visible in the monthly bill of my
phone that most of the detail mention our SMS to her and my beloved wife! Oh
my…, Life is to know what did not know. So, what will I know next second,
minute, hour, day, month, year, I do not know and that’s what will I know. I am only passing the short journey of my
life to search provisions into life after death. And I’ve got nothing until
now. Even I only preoccupied meet the
worldly needs. And I think most off human being will act the same way,
worldly! Life goes on…
At
least I’ll try being and have a good manner as human being. I’ll try hard avoid harm others, I’ll try
hard not to cheat others and I’ll try not being sneaky! With or nor mention in holly scripture, with
or nor tough by philosophy, I only try being a human who have good manner.
That’s all.
Every
day most of them conducted religion ritual, but every day they also did what
been forbidden to do. Beautiful contradiction, don’t it? And like I say… Life
goes on.
Did
they know that annual appraisal will nothing if they have so much cutting
point? So, why they always protest when I conveyed the sum of their cutting
point? Ignorant and stupid selfish!
I’ll
try not to talk about my super duper boss, but apparently he deserves to be
talk! And finally I was sick to talk it!
17:00-00:00
With
the incident or everything have happen today, are they stupidity, ignorantly,
wisely or even goodness, I reflected all of those to my family every time I
arrived at my home. Big question and be my big responsibility is… what will
they belong? As a snake, wolf or truly human who have good manner? I the thing
that I always hope and pray to Almighty, please give them good fortune and good
manners! Amen YRA.
Thursday, 6 December 2012
00:00-17:00
I
was so happy this morning, with the fresh air of the dawn, I have been shown
the beautiful of growing process of my vegetables that I seed in my simple
vertical garden on Sunday. Whereas yesterday I did not show the growth, still
only flat soil in the bamboo, but this morning they already filled by kale
sprouts! How beautiful they were. Thanks God.
And
it’s enough to make me always smile on the way to my office. Sometime happiness
came from simplicity! And I am not doubt it!
And
I faced today the battle to the top is full of high class deceit and intrigue.
The
flexibility sometimes should be need for solving the problem that needs the
flexibility. We will look dumb if we forced the rigidity to fight the
flexibility. But why they do the dumb things? Are the realized that rigidity
must fight with flexibility? And what’s the leader is for. They must have those
capabilities. And do not blame to me if
finally I have been seen by my “boss” that actually me who has those
capabilities! So long
17:00-00:00
Oh
my… my youngest son just able to walk 2 step by his own! He is so adorable!
Friday, December 07, 2012
00:00-17:00
Today
I must face hard contradiction, in one side I must enforce company rule, in
other side I can not bear to see the long face of my colleague who must
terminate today because of their performance. It’s the risk of my position.
Life goes on… I only hope there is not complaint in the next.
Finally
colleagues who will terminate are received what company offer, of course little
help from Union. With this succeeded Union ask for little fee. It’s OK; it’s
also mention in regulation. But like usual my super duper boss with silly argue
and dumb prejudice deny to give little fee to Union. Is he so dumber not to
think the effect if company do not give fee to Union? Sometime even day by day
I surprise what he has did. More out from normal line! I sacrifice my angry to explain to him the
consequence of this case. How rigid you are my super duper boss!!
Total
almost 15 people I terminated my colleague since I jointed to Adm. Oh my… But I also tremendous wonder to my
colleague. When they did something that breaking the regulation stoutly
challenge to management will not afraid if management fired them concerning
what they did, but while management was conveying to them will fired, they show
regret face even show tremendous fear face! And confess their regret and will
fix their behavior! And again the regret usually come later when the
consequences has happen. The most afraid of me is they will curse me!
17:00-00:00
My
middle son Igi show gloomy face when I came home I did not bring a car. Seemly
he want to ask me eat Fried Chicken to the restaurant with the man who has
white mustache and beard; Colonel Sanders! What can I say; the car is not
belonging to us my dear.
Saturday, 8 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Owwwh…
she in red with tight legging! Butt, breast and body curve clearly shows! But
with veil! Oh…my sweetie, better you take off your veil if you dress like that.
Have you understand what the meaning and the purpose of hijab? Hijab refers to the traditional
head, face, or body covering worn by Muslim women. It does not only refer to
the physical body covering, but also embodies a metaphysical dimension, where
al-hijab refers to "the veil which separates man or the world from God. Hijab can also be used to refer to the
seclusion of women from men in the public sphere. Most often, it is worn by
Muslim women as a symbol of modesty,
privacy and morality, particularly in the presence of non-related adult
males. So, if you dress like that, you make me say “wow” in the negative
thinking even dirty thinking! And you now I am not non related adult male of
you are! Yes! It make me happy but I little concern concerning your commitment
to wear Hijab! One again you better take off your Hijab if you do not able to
carry on your shoulder the provisions if you have worn a Hijab. Yes indeed you
so sexy in tight black legging and in red dress. But, have you commit with you
own choice be a hijabers?
Again, in this Saturday we
went to wedding party, of course with my sweetie and accounting colleague. The
more I pull, the more I drag! It’s so hard to undergo. Moreover my chance to
always be with her so open wide, like a cold sea breeze dash into my face, it
make me fresh and feel high comfort down to my heart. While I was seeing the
fresh of her in the beach, I denied swallowing that freshness. But, the more I
pull, the more I drag in. Life goes on… Its enough only take her silhouette
from a distance. Its enough only adore her picture when I toke it with my Sony
Experia. And only adore from a distance
when upload that photo because of our commitment too.
17:00-00:00
Fortunately my driver’s
motorcycle kept in my home, so I can use it for spend weekend to continued low
budget culinary. Thanks
Sunday, 9 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Plan is only plan, but for
implementation is very-very depend on situation. Like my plan to go jogging
with my entire family in city square in this Sunday afternoon become mess! It
just because the condition, the condition of my eye that did not agree to open
early in the dawn. So, my eldest son Ega continued play with his bed, My middle
son Igi was sank with his game consol, my youngest son was in my shoulder right
now and my beloved wife was sank in her activities concerning household in this
Sunday afternoon.
My focus have divide, pay
attention t my youngest son not eat dirt and pay attention to my plant!
Finally the mess is over!
My beloved wife has finished take care the household, Igi already bathed and
Ega has woken up. Me? Also already finish with my plant. So…. Let’s go
breakfast! Like usual, go to the city square and enjoy chicken noodle with low
budget culinary.
It is so beautiful Sunday
afternoon when I toke a nap! I woke up in 4 o’clock, and ride a motorcycle with
my youngest son then.
17:00-00:00
Enjoying TV show,
especially the derby game of Manchester City and Manchester United. Finally MU
win 3-2 after undergo tremendous fight with the citizens. Robin van Persie’s injury-time free kick bring winner and
moved Manchester
United six points ahead of neighbors Manchester City at the top
of the English Premiere League.
Monday, 10 December 2012
00:00-17:00
So, what I will look for in
this sucking Monday? Let’s will see…
It turns out all remain the
same! Situation, condition, people and my lunatic still remain the same. So,
what the challenge for next day if I continuously faced the same thing? Just
try to reflect and just try to continue my journey. Boring! So, what I suppose to do? Was I pretending
for all I’ve got, pretending for all I’ve achieved? Complaining again and
again, complaining is a boundary, imagination is to free, action is to make, sincere
is to peace, granted is beatify and just keep my faith to glorify! I think
those are things that must I do for my entire life.
And just shown the
capabilities of you are. When you met the things that you must solve with your
capability, you also showed your lack!
Ah, in the boring day,
there’s a similarity over and over again that can not make me bored is the
fragrant of you are!
17:00-00:00
I was companying my beloved
son study to face exam in 1st semester. I hope they can through
it. And…hahaha… my youngest son Juang
also joint in the crowded of my living room. The yells of my 2nd son
Igi, the tease of my eldest son Ega and the noisy sound of my beloved wife! How
complete it was!
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
00:00-17:00
My super duper boss does
not come in this day. He told me that he got blown at 2 AM! But after got
treatment at health clinic, curiously there’s no disease at all! Hmhmhm… was he
got psychosomatic? When he told about his complaint concerning his disease, I
directly sincere convey to him that maybe he should free of his mind! Just try
to relax and just try to reflect. Reflection of his capability and ability, I
think his too hard carry of his responsibility. And it’s proven just like I
said yesterday that we must measure our own capability. That maybe one of the factors
he got blown this morning. Psychosomatic means mind
(psyche) and body (soma). A psychosomatic disorder is a disease which involves
both mind and body. Some physical diseases are thought to be particularly prone
to be made worse by mental factors such as stress and anxiety. His current
mental state can affect how bad a physical disease is at any given time. And…
with he has through currently, he got physical disease that is thought to be
caused, or made worse, by mental factors. Oh..,poor of my super duper boss.
Happy birthday to my
youngest son Juang, you are 1 year old right now. Just splash the memory a year
ago. In the Saturday night you make me, your mom, your brother force to stay at
hospital. Anyway my son, your welcoming truly makes the best light that paints
my home. So far you’ve been an excellent child by getting excellent grades I
hope. Wishing you a Happy Birthday my little superstar!
My
Shaggy hair boss continuously was asking me about the forecast of profit for
next year if associate with increasing of Regional Minimum wage of Cilegon.
Hmhm… it is very tough! But I’ll try to combine increasing of income and little
reduces regular cost such as Repair Cost.
For me, it is not be my concern, but the interaction between me and my
Shaggy Hair Boss was more comfort when my super duper boss was not there! It is
the time I should pretend as him?
17:00-00:00
I
still accompanied my beloved son study for tomorrow exam. Sometime in this
situation I have a mind if my beloved wife has more time to accompany my sons
when studied in the night. But, she too busy to take care of us! The four of
her sons! So, that responsibility should be hand over by me. Instead my energy
only remains the residue after it burned at my office. Facing naïf people, facing tough people,
facing my sweetie and facing the horrible journey of life! This is it, this
what should I force to face. Dare to live, dare to the consequences.
Wednesday, 12 December 2012
00:00-17:00
It
is fresh! Sure and definitely make me fresh! Woke up in the morning and saw my
simple vertical garden already showed the fresh of its green. Moreover with my
affection always be with me when I take care of them.
Hahaha…
the fresh that I’ve got this morning was ruined by the annoying colleague. It’s
OK.., I still have the rest of morning freshness, so I can little deny your
sucking behave. But I do not think so if my freshness already run out!
My
Shaggy Hair Boss say goodbye and gave me some order to do when he business trip
to Medan until next Monday. OK… but do not forget to bring me a souvenir.
My
Super Duper Boss was absent; My Shaggy Hair Boss went to Medan, so who will
take advantage from this situation? Sure is my super duper lucky boss! He
already restless wants to go home! Freaks!!
The
more I give an attention, the more she too depends on me! Is it the nature of
woman? Or I’m very late to learn and take a conclusion concerning what I’ve
done. Like I always said, life goes on… Although this is the last mile I’ll
always with you..hu..hu..hu…
17:00-00:00
Today
is English and my sons said that he able to solve the exam, tomorrow is physic
and Information Technology, let’s go sons, we must study to challenge those
exam for tomorrow!
To
cheer my sons while were studying the lessons, I order fried chicken as snack!
Hahaha…
Thursday, 13 December 2012
00:00-17:00
My
entire family include my youngest son Juang, already woke up at 4:30 AM! Ega
and Igi continued study, I already went out to take some exercises and
continued take care my plant. And my entire family was nobody who was
conducting my religion ritual to pray in the morning! Nobody! A concern that
has not been felt in the bottom of my heart! I still sink in the sea of logic!
Moreover I have been showed the negative role from others who has declared or
even has a label as hajj but always showed me shits!
My
super duper Boss still got sick and not present today. He told me his cholesterol and glucose raised
up. I think not those factors that make
him sick, but his unnecessary think to others. He is always not been
granted and envious if others have
succeeded, He is always not been happy if others happy and he is always not
been proud if others have a great achieved. In his mind always jealous,
envious, spite and he is always looking the many ways to make others do not
feel happy even mess up if necessary. Laughing with the sadness of others and
feel sad with the happiness of others. The most I hate from him is the coward
of him! Throwing the responsibility and
throwing the problem to others, he’s not even confess if there’s some mistaken
that actually associated with him.
I
have received evaluation result from my bulging cheeks boss. And like usual,
the subjectivities were still poisoning him! Especially if he appraised his
staff! Stingy to workers but generous to staff! Did he think that all workers
were stupid and the staff always clever? Freaks! But this time I directly
convey to him that it is not right! And what I’ve got? The naïve explanation
from him! Whereas the result of evaluation for staff was ridiculous! Just be
your considered, in total 8 of staff, who got “A” grade were 5 persons! It is
ridiculous, right? But what workers got?
None of them who got “A” grade, but dominated with “D” and “E” grade!
Curious!
17:00-00:00
My
beloved sons told me that they able to do the exam today. OK, but tomorrow is
math! Let’s study it! And not felt by
me, turns out the clock has showed 9 PM! Wuuuiiih, not bad I’ve been a teacher
for my sons! And practically I had been a teacher for my sons for a week! And still discipline to get bed on 9 PM
sharp! I’ll always obey and try to always sleep for 8 hours. It is healthy as
the expert said.
Friday, 14 December 2012
00:00-17:00
In
the end of this week, suddenly I have strange thoughts in my mind. I almost
achieved what I’ve dreamed, but I have not happy feeling! Did the happiness
should be created by my self? It just caused last night I always saw happy face
of seller when I ate favorite culinary of my family. He seemly loves his job so much! And it
proved me again that almost right that the happiness should be created by ourselves!
I can hold my self not to comment on him directly. I asked why he always looks
happy. And surprise me the answer is so simple! He said, “Work with what we got!” And for me, that is a very-very wide of
interpreted if I truly understand what just he said. Simple but have a multi
meaning and humble! So, why I not try to love my job or what I will do or
got? Moreover life is just not like a
spot game. Win or lose is very real in sport game, but in life is very-very
relative and subjective. It needs our imagination to feel happy or
success! Not harm at all if we try to
feel little success in everything that we’ve done or got. Just little throw
away the feeling of failure, unhappy and un-succeeded. I thing we’ve caught up with the euphoria of
others success! Whereas succeeded of others not necessarily fit to us. That’s
maybe making our stress!
My
super duper Boss already heal, he came today. And..hahahaha… He start making
another curious today!
I
only try not to judge as apostate to always conduct and presence in Friday
prayers! Religious values have not stab in my deepest heart! That’s the one and
only as my concern!
Blonyon
has made me annoy again! Whatever! Work ethic is very low. Actually my sweetie
also has low of work ethic. The different is only my feeling! I always feel
sick to Blonyon, but I always feel comfort and feel happy to my sweetie.
Oxytocin like flooded to my head when I stare and closed to her. And definitely the way I expressed my angry
also different!
I
finished resuming evaluation result and showing to my Bulging Cheeks Boss the
strange chart concerning evaluation result! He just scratched his head!
17:00-00:00
When
I came home, Igi already welcomed me and said, “Dad, mother said that she did
not make any food today. So, there’s no food for dinner”. Hehehe… the same
trick that I’ve got if my family wants to eat outside, OK, let’s go
downtown! But in my heart I just
wondered that we just ate favorite culinary yesterday night! Will we ate that
food again? But…whatever, I think it little gift as reward because my sons want
to study hard during exam!
Saturday, 15 December 2012
00:00-17:00
I
was undergoing overtime day with no presence of my sweetie. It’s OK. She said
that she will see her nephew who live in Germany was in Indonesia today.
On
the way home, I see a child with a used sack on his back. When I saw his face,
truly show a gloomy face. It’s upside down with the face that I saw when I got
favorite culinary a few days ago. The seller showed happy face, but this child
showed gloomy face. He was rather dragging his steps because of heavy load on
his back. If considered his physic, seemly his on same age with my beloved son
Igi. And… I always can not hold my tears when I saw similar condition with
this. Maybe my destiny was not far from him if my family did not care or pay
attention to me. If I can say, truly I was an abandon child too! My father left
me when I was 5 years old. Thanks God I have a very-very kind and patient
uncle! He had been taking care of me until his death! No matter how bastard I
was, my uncle always gave the best thing to me. Even I have made him disappoint
because of my dido! How can I pay to him for his kind?? And I wish I can give
little help for him, but I was denying and try to stay cool!
Before
dark I came home, so I have so much time to paly with my youngest son Juang.
The shadow of the child with used sack on his back directly flash out in my
head. Suddenly, I have some kind of push
to directly hold my youngest son Juang in my arms! The thinking of I will not
let my sons have same fate with him getting stronger! Wish me luck and always
healthy, son. So I can accompany all of you to get old. And maybe I will give
you my tremendous effort with what I got!
17:00-00:00
Igi
whimper to buy some PS cassettes games. The shadows of the child did not fade
from my head away, without any reason, I granted my son Igi to buy PS cassettes
game. It just because I will not let my sons suffer! So, I, my beloved wife,
Juang and Igi go to down town by motorcycle!
Before
get home, like usual, we passed by to the tent of my favorite culinary, Goat’s
Leg soup!
Sunday, 16 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Fertilizing my plant, get off the old leave,
re-potting if necessary were becoming my regular Sunday morning activities.
Moreover my simple vertical garden also needs my attention. I planted an easy
grow vegetables such a kale or mustard as my first attempt. And thanks God my
kale grew well. I try with organic ways,
so I only use organic source to fertilize it. And, again thanks God, in my
neighborhood there’s so many buffalos shits in field beside my house! Hahaha…
When I
sank with my plant, suddenly I shocked with the arrival of my colleague. And
shocker apparently he gave me a root of December Flower! He said why it called
December flower, because it only blooms on month December. He knew that I have
hobby gardening. Thanks…
My
brother have called that my mother’s house was collapsed in some part. The
meaning was… I need some cash!
17:00-00:00
I
was enjoying TV show like usual. My Sons were playing game, include my youngest
son Juang. It was a beautiful sound when Ega and Igi shouting because they were
been disturbing by my youngest son Juang.
Monday, December 17, 2012
00:00-17:00
I
just lay my butt on the chair, my sweetie directly insisted me to make
recommendation letter as a requirement for a passport when she came. Ah…,
woman! Ok sweetie, do not worry. I will
make it soon. And…hmhmhm. She was
emerging her childish when I said that. Blushing face and childish gleaming,
it’s enough to make me…high!
Passport…,
if there is not anything to fail in, my passport will get another abroad mark
in next March. Yes! I will send to get management and safety training in Japan
for a week. My sweetie also will go to Mecca on early of March. I wish I can
meet her in…. Hahahaha…
Sometime
I still confused what supposed I will do. In other side I am family man, in the
dark side I am also a man! My lunatic about the fresh of youth, lust and deny
my age were influencing my effort being a true family man. It’ proven that my
2nd puberty was undergoing! Bismillahirrohmanirrohim…
17:00-00:00
In
this safety meeting, I have reward as an employee who has achieved 15 years of
dedication! What a number! 1 November 1997 was my 1st day I joined
in this company. And the question is what the factors that make me so loyal in
this company? First, I really aware about my capability! Or it can say, my
capability is really deserved by this company! Or in rough way if I smart
enough, maybe I did not work here! Those were consolation words of me, but I
think in this company I truly offered job security very-very well! Where I can
get my current position in others company? I only 8 semester been in university
or I can say I am not a university graduated!
Yes indeed, it’s also the contribution of my hard work as well, but it’s
right, what the company was give me a big chance like this?
When
I came home, I directly showed the charter award from my company to my beloved
wife. I think for my wife the most important concerning my achievement
is…money! Hahaha… because with this reward money, I with my entire family went
to down town and get dinner!
Tuesday, 18 December 2012
00:00-17:00
When something ending in my days I have through, I
always got the effort that make me frustrated or I can not get my satisfaction!
But I do believe find peace in
that which I have accomplished, or even failed to accomplish. At the same time,
I must precipitates actions to return to that fabled, rosy-painted time,
particularly in I believe in life to be a failure, and then it is an empty
thing, doomed to produce nothing but frustration and an even greater sense of
failure. So… let through whit what I got! Life goes on…
I attended meeting consolidation for safety contest
2012. Hmhmhm… the figure of him splash on my head in this situation.
I want really to know
while I was undergoing in this tremendous journey of my life, did I get or I
have done without punching anyone, kicking anyone, or breaking down in tears? Some
days the small victories are all I achieve. And I must confess and little
concern about it.
17:00-00:00
Commitment is something many claim to have, yet few seem to
understand. It is a concept that has been used, abused and improperly modeled
for so long that we've lost sight of what genuine devotion looks like. And that
has been my number one pursuing in my entire life. My beloved wife, my beloved
sons and of course as my ethic moral as human being! Where my marriage is
concerned, commitment is the decision to continue in the relationship. I want to continue my holly marriage. I take
pleasure in being married. I enjoy being committed to my spouse. The more I
deny, the more I ignore, the more I believe that always staying in marriage is
the right thing to do. Yes! If you say I stuck, yes I do! It just caused by my
values and beliefs.
So, who is my sweetie? Did I hypocrite? Whatever you say,
it’s a matter of fact I have a commitment with my beloved wife, even with God!
And I should keep my word. My sweetie is one of my sweet habitant of my heart!
I only leave the way it is, the way I adore, the way I decorate my hearts with
the comfortable things. My beloved wife, my beloved sons and my sweetie! I am
sorry for my beloved mother; the level of my passions to you is lower than
them! Although the passion of you is as long as the roads, I thank you very
deep in my heart for that. Measuring the passions is multi facet and extremely
relative. Right now, in this second my highest passions are present to my
beloved wife, my beloved sons and my sweetie!
Wednesday,
19 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Ough! I almost slipped in this day! But thanks God; You
still showed me the best way to get in.
Japanese trainee in my company will end in this day. A
good guy, humble guy and handsome guy of Japanese will leave us today. His
handsome face has attracted my accounting colleague who has not married yet.
But seemly he did not attract to her at all. How about my sweetie? Like usual,
she very-very clever to hide her true feel! Stay cool if I can say. I think she
also keep her holly commitment. Include her feeling to me! It will emerge in
some circumstances that the characteristic of woman associate it. Such as my
attention to her!
My Shaggy Hair Boss drove him to airport. Sayonara
Japanese san! And again, who will take advantage in this situation? Correct! My
Super Duper Lucky boss will take advantage, he directly ciao!
Sometimes
in life I always faced with a rare opportunity... but with those rare I also
always stuck and caught up in a billion of considering. And finally those
opportunities fly away from me. That’s a life…
17:00-00:00
Hehe… turns out waiting for something or someone is
boring!
This evening I feel empty without the presence of my
eldest son Ega! He was tour with his friends to Bogor. Usually Ega with his
indifferent and his silent was harassing his brother Igi and Juang in this
evening. That’s always made me want to go home soon. But now…. It’s so quiet
and so flat! I can not imagine if my sons Ega already in college. Will my house
feel empty? I hope not. And thanks God I and my beloved wife were one of many
couples who were been trusted by God and gave us 3 sons!
The emptiness of this evening little cure with the
story from my beloved wife that my youngest son Juang able to walk by his own
already! And my beloved wife also has expressed her happy by throwing a coin to
my neighbor! In Indonesia, especially in Java, it’s called SAWERAN!
Alias…THANKS GOD!
Thursday, 20
December 2012
00:00-17:00
My habit always woke up in the dawn apparently health
me up! Almost in a year I have not get influenza! But…. My religious life is
remaining the same! Still indifferent and criticized the followers of religion
who do not apply religious teach in their life! I better called as atheist than
I forced to follow the teaching of religious that I have not applied yet!
Wounds from a friend are hard to ignore. It's better to have an enemies who lets me
know that they hates me than to have a trusted friend that will deceit me,
slander me, and destroy my reputation secretly without expecting that they can
do it. Should I angry to express it? Should I? Some expert said that
releasing anger is healthy. But why I should angry? I better keep my anger than explode it. That
explode maybe will make the friends who have wounded me feel a great happy
because the purpose achieved! So, why I
should waste my valuable adrenalin? Should I shift my focus on my journey of
life just caused that wound? Let me ask to my self, what do I want more of in
my life? What have I had enough of and needs to end today? I do not think so!
If I have frustrated that caused by those wounds, I better shift my frustration
to what I dearly want to. Create the enjoyable things maybe. And the greatest I
expected from my effort to control my anger is my emotion become powerful to
help I survive in my journey of life! So, move on!
17:00-00:00
Because
of the tight schedule of my Shaggy Hair Boss, end year party 2012 conducted in
this evening. After boring exposed of my company forecast for 2013 from my
Super Duper Boss, the feast of gastronomic begin! And I can stare the beauty of
my sweetie while I was eating my dish! I do not care if tomorrow the prediction
of the Mayan that tomorrow is end of the world will be actualized. The
important is my appetite was fulfilled! Both in my stomach and my eye!
Catching!
Friday, 21
December 2012
00:00-17:00
This day is 21 December 2012, this is the day that
Mayan predicted is the end of world, this is the day that I forget to pay my
Cell phone bill! The end of the world did not happen, but my cell phone was
blocked just happen!
And again, even I have lack of religion but I always
belief that there’s a Mighty Power up there. The powers have an absolute power
to act what He wants and what He will. In Quran said “Kun Fayakun” . It means
Kun= to be, Fayakun: and it is! The word referring to act of manifesting,
existing or being. God commands to the world Kun! And Fayakun! Be! And it is!
The word that show the absolute power of Him, God's Mystical
Creative Power! So, why we must sink in the crowded end of world confusion? And again it
did not prove that the end of the world happens in this month even in this day!
I think why we should be afraid to make a mistake? Are
we always trying new things, learning, living, pushing ourselves, changing ourselves,
even to change our world better than yesterday in my journey of life? I will do
things I’ve never done before, because I must do something for living. So let I
make mistakes, next year and forever!
17:00-00:00
Oooooh… I just knew that… it’s Gangnam Style! LOL…
funny! Fat guy dance riding horse style! Really, I just knew it. Instead the
Gangnam style was being hot issued around the world, but I do just know this
evening when I saw American Music Award in FOX TV! Wow! South Korean musician Psy
able to shake the music world in general usually was ruled by Americans or British.
Saturday, 22
December 2012
00:00-17:00
Safety contest! Boring! But I must be participant as a
jury for my good performance to the management. Oh my…, that’s a consequences
being a salary man! My beloved wife protested because I can not presence in my
sons meeting school concerning the preparation of final exam. But that’s a
parents are for. Father and mothers should be wise to share urgent necessity
for family. So, I attend in safety contest, my wife attend in meeting school.
Done!
Finally my boring activities have done! And…. It’s my
time for my beloved sons
17:00-00:00
My cheek was pulled by my happiness when I saw my
youngest son Juang able to walk by him self.
C’mon sons! And in this entire evening, I, my beloved wife, Ega and Igi
were happy and feel excited. And more curious why my eldest son Ega has not
desire to go out in this Saturday night! Is he comfort enough always being at
home? I was a little worried about his indifferent! A lot of his girl friend
attracts my sons with teenage ways instead! But my sons still seems
indifferent! When I same age with my
sons Ega, I already know the vibe of first kiss! And I repeat it over and over
with others girls lip! Whatever, the important things are my sons have not do
negative things! Not like his father in his age!
Sunday, 23
December 2012
00:00-17:00
Finally I able to place side by side my rose and m
jasmine! But, in literally! Not actually as my wife or my sweetie! Only
literally rose flower and jasmine flower! Hahaha…
Practically in this entire Sunday, I only stay at
home! No car, no motorcycle! And…daylight shows begin! Ah… very long time since
my youngest son born, we conduct daylight shows! It was defeated by my youngest
sons Juang to force our attention. And the result was…..FANTASTIC! My slut was
back! And continued daylight nap… delicious!
I woke up at 4 PM, but I feel weak and limp. Maybe my
power has been sucked by my beloved wife.
17:00-00:00
Because of my attention to foreign TV such as BBC
knowledge, National Geographic Channel, HBO, FOX etc, I really missed my
homeland news! But, when changed the channel into local TV, hmhm… ridiculous
news I have watched! Those make me sick! I better watch the real monkey in
National Geographic channel than saw “the monkey” in my local TV!
Then…. I feel more annoying when I saw my favorite MU
only play draw with Swansea!
Monday, 24
December 2012
00:00-17:00
I have received bad news or good news today. I even
can not define what the kind of the news was. My sweetie told me that she was pregnant!
She enthusiastically told to me the test pack result. I feel happy because the
wants of her to have a daughter will fulfill but in the other silly thinking
that I was jealous to her beetle! I wish she was mine… Hahahaha. She continued
told me that I was the 2nd man who was told by her concerning her
happiness today.
Lonely office! Most of my colleagues were taking
annual leave today! My sweetie also whimpers to get home. It’s OK….
Finally…more lonely office! But its better than cheat
me up with nonsense excuse that usually used by Blonyon if she in big horny!
Whereas no matter at all if she honestly told me will play nasty with someone.
But she always searches nonsense excuse! I do not like at all. Like in this
time, she told me that her mother in law was in her house, so she asked permit
me to get home early! Weird! If she say will get home, just get home, maybe I
do not hesitate to give her permit. And
she starts complain to me why I always give my sweetie permit without any
question, but if she asks permit I always ask to her a thousand questions?
Absolutely difference! Surely I have feeling to my sweetie, but that’s not
primary reason I always gave her permit when she ask. But, my sweetie always
tells a truth where will she go or what will she do. But You!! You always tell
me a lie!! And you showed me again what of your lie! I really-really hate being
lied to
17:00-00:00
OK… I think it’s a special dinner for holiday. Let’s
go down town and search low budget culinary.
Tuesday, 25
December 2012
00:00-17:00
This is Christmas day! And I feel hesitate to convey
and greeting to my colleague who Christian, but whatever!
I more confuse to think the dumb of egoism. The ego of
majority and the ego of stupidity! Do you feel that the truth of you is the one
and only the truth in this planet? Are you sure that God is only for you? Do
you know God also loves you with all of you’ve done that you think its right?
Do you ever think that kill or harm people is a bad action no matter it must be
done because of religion suggested? Why you always fatwas “forbidden” to say
Merry Christmas??? Lebaran and Christmas should be for
everyone who believes in forgiveness and love. All mankind who believe in God
have same rights to express their love to God! And for all mankind who believes
in forgiveness and love surely have holy feeling to always give forgiveness and
love. Why it always being silly debate? Why good things should be gazed? Merry
Christmas fellows!!
17:00-00:00
Empty…..ness!
Wednesday,
26 December 2012
00:00-17:00
I still can not erase in my mind what the meaning of
tolerant and intolerant. Especially in religious harmony, for me religion is a
fundamental element of life and human life, therefore, freedom of religion [and
no religion, and religious conversion] must be respected and guaranteed. The
expression freedom of religion gives a comprehensive sense that includes
building a house of worship and assembly, worship; established social
institutions; publications, and contact with individuals and institutions in
matters of religion at the national or international level. But right now it
only lips service in my beloved country. So many conflicts that associate a
silly understanding concerning religion life! Freedom is freedom, freedom of
religion, makes a person able to eliminate discrimination based on religion! So,
Was I wrong to convey my tolerant to other beliefs with say Merry Christmas
wishes?
Life is choose, be life is must and what of our life
is being chosen. So, what I’ve been choosing surely is what I’ve chosen. And
for what I’ve been choosing can not be chosen by anyone or will influence to
someone. By any means, by any say and by any contempt is what I’ve chosen. So
I’m not deserve to get argue or scorn others concerning what they’ve been choosing
for their life, because they also do not deserve to get argue concerning what
I’ve chosen. Life is life, when it's over, I only call it should last. Every minute of the future is a memory of the
past. And I do believe that I’ve given to my life is my best. The best of my life,
and that’s why the life is colorful!
17:00-00:00
Because of my beloved wife’s hair have been taken care
by me at home, whether it’s cutting or cream bathing, this evening I and my
beloved wife go to down town to buy some hair vitamins. Yeah, it is enjoyable
moment when I toke care my beloved wife’s hair. Last Sunday, when I was cream
bathing my beloved wife’s hair, there’s a neighbor came into my house and saw
what we were doing. Apparently my neighbor told to my entire neighborhood what
I did last Sunday! And what I’ve got? I was being labeled by my neighbor as a
good husband and lovely husband! Woooowww….!!
Whereas I did not think of it at all! I only concern my beloved wife’s
hair that starts to dull and damage because smoothing treatment a few months
ago. That’s all, but thanks God if with what I’ve done; I got great expectation
like that.
Thursday, 27
December 2012
00:00-17:00
I more and more feel
confidence that what I’ve been choosing is bringing me some joy in my life.
Include my religion life! I always woke up at 4:45 and go to bed at
21:00. I force to maintain those cycles every day of my life. Of course I will
fill in that cycle with what I got, including right now I only as adorer of my
sweetie and do not dare beyond from my courage.
I got
I got strange feeling today, or exactly I have
negative feeling. It still can not wonder why I have bad feeling? Sometime my
heartbeat beat like a drum, anxious, restless whereas nothing happen that harm
me at all, but bad feeling or the feeling of anxious or restless come. What the
caused of it, I do not understand. Usually in Javanese custom it associates
with the sign of bad luck. But what bad luck that will I get? It connected with
what I pursue of my goal in my life may inherently involve going through some
challenging times and situations, and an unwillingness to ‘pay the toll' for
the trip may narrow my life horizons needlessly. Whatever! But the most afraid
of my bad feeling today is because what everything I’ve been doing for my
entire life was harm people! Indeed I am not prophets or holy person, but
actually my top priority in my life that anything I have do or I will do as
forced as not harm others! Whatever you say, that’s the top priority of my
life.
17:00-00:00
When I saw
the joy of my son Ega in playing game online, I little worry he start addict. I have a PS2, but I've cut
way back on my playing since I have a new hobby gardening. But maybe it
influence what I’ve done in my family. Before I have new hobby gardening, I
always spend my holiday time with playing PS2 in a whole day! I take
responsibility for my actions, including raising my kids. I should
actually care to take my kids to the park and throw ball, or go on trips to the
zoo or amusement park! And what I’ve got today? All of my sons very-very endure
keep their eye in front of the monitor! I did not realize that my sons imitate
what I was doing, so if my sons are sitting around being lazy and always play
video games, it might be time to look at me! Ohhh!
Friday, 28 December 2012
00:00-17:00
My intensity takes pee in
the night increase! 3 times in a night,
and I more concern that my piss was foaming! As I read at literature, it
indicate that my kidneys in unwell condition. There’s protein in my piss. Oh
my… I hope it’s OK.
I got bad news from my
sweetie; she told me that she got vaginal bleeding! Owhh! Will she miscarriage again? I hope not. Is
her womb so weak? But why when she 1st pregnant and born her 1st
child nothing bad happen at all? Is there abnormality concerning of her gen? Because
on the 2nd pregnant she was miscarriage when her gestational age not
even 1 month. And she must trough painful curettage treatment. And again in her
3rd pregnant, she already got vaginal bleeding! Her obstetrician
said that she must get bed rest, because her womb is weak. Actually nothing in medical terms what is called the "weak womb,"
Nothing medical literature that mentions the term. I little concern that she
maybe got infection, so her cervical can not hold the embryo in it. But,
dilemmatic for me, if I’m too involve concerning her pregnant, she’s not mine,
but if I I deny it, she always told me what she has done or anything were
happen to her. I only pray to you… Did it cause my bad feeling yesterday? I did
not know. Maybe yes maybe no!
And in this whole day, I can not stay away from the
thinking of my sweetie. The question of how she is or how bad she was, were
disturb my thinking! I can not hold not to tell to my beloved wife, but I worry
my beloved wife have bad prejudice to me. Oh my…
17:00-00:00
I can not answer when my beloved wife ask to me why my
appetite did not like usual. But, finally I told her that my sweetie got
vaginal bleeding again. I believe my beloved wife has thought why it influences
my appetite? What’s going on between me and my sweetie? I hope you truly
understand me my beloved wife. It’s only my big concern of me that truly I can
not deny my attention to her little as same as my attention to you. Sorry…
Saturday, 29
December 2012
00:00-17:00
I plan with my entire family down the road
among West Java. After got breakfast, we start from my residence in Serang
Banten. Constant 60 km/hour, we arrived in Pandeglang city, and we start passed
through a beautiful panorama of mountain landscape! Hehe.. I just realize with
low budget I with my entire family can enjoy the beautiful of my country! Not for a while I arrived at the district of
Lebak. Crowded and dirty! It shame for Lebak is the crossing of the tourist
destination! In this district the traveler who want to go Baduy community must
through this district first before to get there. Firstly I want to go there,
but my sons did not agree. They better continued down the road until Bogor
city! The strange joy of my family, whereas I really want to go Baduy
community.I have been in Serang Banten for 6 years
but I even have not go to Baduy Community! The Baduy community in Banten is an utterly unique and closed society which can be reached by road from Rangkasbitung/Lebak. The road is steep. But I’m sure will pay with the pleasure when enjoyed the panorama. To get Baduy village, we must get there on foot about 10 km by steep footpath road from either Cibolegar or Cibungur village in the Leuwidamar district. It’s not bad to decrease the
But like local said, in April and May, the Baduy community is closed to outsiders, as during this time it commemorates certain ceremonies, called Seba, the offering of part of their agricultural products to the Head of the District, Sub-Regent and the Chief Resident. During this ceremony the "Puun of Baduy" sends out a group of representatives of Baduy Dalam people as well as Baduy Luar to act as the community's spokesmen. When conducting this Seba ceremony the Baduy Dalam members refuse to ride any vehicle, instead, the distance of 150 km is traveled on foot as proof of their perseverance.
My daydream imagines the beautiful of Baduy community was paid by the whimpering of my youngest son Juang. Maybe he little bore in the car, so we stop in Cipanas district. In Cipanas district there’s hot springs but again my sons refuse to get there. OK, the whimper of my son stops when I buy “rambutan” fruit or “hairy” fruit? Hehe…. Rambutan is my beloved country Indonesia native fruit. It has taste sweet and sour. December is rambutan and durian seasons indeed. But because of my low budget trip, we do not buy or enjoy the sensual taste of durian!
In the middle day, we arrived in the city that famous to be called “rain city” Bogor. Bogor is the one of my dream city to be lived in Indonesia. I really like the giant ancient trees that still remain stand still in the corridor of Bogor roads. They were came the “cold and green effect” of Bogor city. The three of my dreams city to be lived are Malang, Bandung and Bogor. And three of them also have giant ancient trees that still remain stand still in the corridor of their roads. So, I prefer attract to the giant three or the cities actually? I do not know, the fact is I always dream to live in the one of those cities!
However, Bogor is famous because of its Botanical Garden which borders the Palace Grounds, covering an area of 87 hectares with thousands of species of plant-life from all over the world, including towering age old trees and the rarest kinds of orchids. See the original "Havea Brazilliensis" rubber tree, formerly imported from Brazil, and world's largest flower, the Rafflesia, a foul smelling and stem less as well as leafless plant. But… hehehe.. Again my sons refuse to get there! Curious! But thanks God, low budget of me seemly will clear budget! And my sons enough only enjoy the beautiful of Presidential Palace setting which is in a colorful and flowery vast garden around it. There are many deer in it garden, they make more colorful the Presidential palace.
17:00-00:00
And here again, the whole our car trip will be memorable only with my low budget. The culinary associate it also low budget! Because we just ate for lunch or exactly as dinner at Serang in the place that we usually enjoy low budget culinary! I was so happy to see my sons face showed happy face! They brutally ate the soup!
When I came home, I directly watch MU versus West Brom Albion!
Sunday, 30 December 2012
00:00-17:00
Continued regular activity that I have abandon for 5 month, is jogging! I have been starting my jogging for several days since I have bad condition of my health. And it proves that jogging can re-fresh my body.
I miss the seasoning Javanese salad (pecel) of my mother. I wish I can call her…
To little relieve my longing to my mother seasoning, I and my beloved wife search pecel to my breakfast. There’s a pecel’s seller at Cilegon but the taste could not match with my mother seasoning. But it’s not bad for my tongue.
17:00-00:00
And….sleep all day! But at 5 PM I already woke up and directly wash my office’s car. Sret..srot..sret..srot!
Hmhmhm… the boring meeting I must face in this evening in my neighborhood! When I really bored in the meeting, suddenly I received SMS from my sweetie. She told me that she got vaginal bleeding again! Again??? What can I say? I only deep concern when I read the SMS from her. It enough to see me how sad she was. And I do not feel that my tears start collect in my eyes corner! Be patient my sweetie, I’m sure the God will give the best way for you. Apparently my action was caught by my colleague. He asks me what’s going on, and I say…nothing. In my deepest heart, I always pray for you my sweetie…and I do not care my tears fall and been watched my colleague.
Monday, December 31, 2012
00:00-17:00
Lonely office and quiet! All of my accounting colleagues were annual leave and some of my Boss also take annual leave. So, what will I do? It's end of day in December and year 2012. Where I plant to celebrate New Year eve? I do not care and what ever! I better play with my entire sons. PS2 OK, or playing card..OK, or just watch the celebrating of New Year in all around the world on TV? I think it’s a good idea. I only call to my beloved wife to make some snack
Childish! Sometime I really wonder that some of my colleagues still and still have childish behave! This shouldn’t even be an expectation. Our mindset should be focused on giving. There will be times things don’t go our way. No matter how much we beg and plead, certain things weren’t meant to be. With two people in a relationship both have to be satisfied. Coming to terms with the idea it’s not all about one individual is challenging for some but necessary for all. A one sided relationship becomes old really fast. The other spouse will eventually get tired of giving and never receiving. And we all know what happens when one gets tired! Freaks! Do not we realize that most of us are over 40’s?
I want to know how my sweetie was. I send SMS and the replied that she was in obstetrician. My concern run wild and I do not know why. Is it my deep feeling to her? I do not know. In this situation, yes indeed she or I do not ask expectation or dependence, it only flows. Is it passions? Why it shame to confess if from this passion I feel happy? I do not ask from others to make me happy. My happiness is what I am feeling, it is in my heart. So even from this situation she do not pay attention or payback to me, I do not mind at all. I do not regret to myself. Right now I feel great if I am nearby her, but once again I do not bind with her. I only express my passion and my deep concern to her. That’s my choice.
17:00-00:00
I just put my butt, my son Igi ask me where to celebrate New Years Eve. OK, son. Lets dinner first and sleep for a while then. New Year… hmhm, a lot of joy in there but in my beloved country there’s also a lot of opinion concerning New Year Eve if associate with religion of the people. But once again, I do not care what the silly things that will be discussed or argue. The most important for me is my family can be happy with any condition, any circumstances and anything that make my family feel joy or happy! Let dumb people argue the dumb things!
At 11:00 sharp we go to city square and joint with thousand people who maybe do not care with silly opinion as Muslim that celebrating New Year Eve is forbidden! We as Muslim is forbidden to participate in any others religious aspect of celebration. And the big question for me is Celebrate New Year Eve religious celebration? What our ability to define that celebrate New Year Eve is religious celebration or feast? And… DHUAAARRR! My daydream is exploded by the joy of firework! Serang City Square is in tremendous fighting of fireworks that come from all Serang Citizen! I, my family and most of Serang city are soluble in the awesome excitement. No matter and we do not care the diversity among us. And…WELCOME 2013! No matter how bad or good your life can get, life goes on. Don’t waste a lot of time because of the past. I only live once so cherish whatever I can and move on living our life...!!! All that I hope for... all that I dream of... all that makes me happy... that's what I am wished in the New Year and always. HAPPY NEW YEAR FOR ALL!! PEACE IS MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN FIGHTING TO KEEP SILLY ARGUMENT!!
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Tuesday, 1
January 2013
00:00-17:00
WELCOME 2013!! I hope
that in this year to come, I will make mistakes again. Because if I am making
mistakes, then I am surely making new things, trying new things, learning,
living, pushing ourselves, changing ourselves, maybe changing my world!. I am
doing things I've never done before, and more importantly, I am Doing
Something. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes
nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't
good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is, whatever it is I am scared of
doing, I will Do it and make mistake from it next year and forever!
I have received form my shaggy Hair
Boss the New Year whishes. No matter at
all with my deepest heart I will return and say…kotoshi mo yoroshiku
o-negai-shimasu (今年もよろしくお願いしますand akemashite o-medetō-gozaimasu ((新年) あけましておめでとうございます no matter at all if he is not Muslim as I am! Again, I feel annoy
concerning diversity of my country. Most leader and most religious leader
always mix brutally between religious life and human relation life! Instead
some religious leaders have opinion that we only forbid to participating in
anything that is purely religious! It is difficult to categorize certain feasts like New Year as
religious. Generally speaking, we can say that it is forbidden for the Muslim
to participate in any religious aspect of a celebration, except the Islamic
celebrations of the two `Eids, and it is allowed to take part in the general,
non-religious aspects of the celebrations of other feasts.
It’s clear for me, in this context it is important to note that
congratulating non-Muslims on their religious or non-religious feasts and
exchanging gifts on these occasions is part of the good relations that we are
commanded to keep with them. Just keep
good relation!! That’s all!
Finally, I’m really aware that my family is the most important
than anything. So with extraordinary feel of happy, we are going home at 2 AM!
I still take a chance to wake up in the 5 AM, no
matter I am in fatigue because drown in the crowded of New Year Eve. Just like
this morning I already woke up at 5Am and directly take care of my plant. But…
after all have been done, I will continue my sleep in the 1st day of
year 2012. No use at all if I force wake in this morning, because most of my
neighbor also still sleep. So let sleep all day!
And indeed I and my entire family just woke up at 11
AM! Delicious! And there’s a call from the inside that….hungry!!!
17:00-00:00
Practically this is the laziest day in this week. I
just watch TV, eat and easy communicating with my sons. Especially with my son
Ega, he will through senior high school in this year. He wants to be a student
at other district but I want him be a student at around our neighborhood.
Sometimes I need little patient to make same perception with my son. That’s
being parents!
Wednesday, 2
January 2013
00:00-17:00
Perfect! I still did healthy activity this morning.
Oh…I almost forget that this morning I must go to my
office little early. Because there’s a things that must be done before 9AM. But
what can I say, I must wait my colleague first because they also in same car
with me. And I forgot to ask them to go to office little early. And the
result….I sputtered!
Ok..Sweetie, let your illness was healed by your bed
rest. Do not think about you task in this office, it will be handled by
Blonyon. Safe your womb, safe your unborn daughter, I will always pray for you
and…hmhm, take care you. Actually I better like you take bed rest in this
office. I’m not sure if you take bed rest in your house; you will be disturbed
by household stuff such as take care of your son. But if you take bed rest in
this office, I will arrange your rest in daily office work. Ignore others, I
will protect you!
But..That’s Blonyon, always busy with her own
business! It’s the reality, right? And I will face it everyday while my sweetie
was taking bed rest in her house.
17:00-00:00
I told to my beloved wife that My Sweetie was taking
bed rest and told her that this morning he got vaginal bleeding again. My
beloved wife only hums. I do not know what she was thinking of. I only share
what I’m thinking of. That’s all.
Thursday, 3
January 2013
00:00-17:00
The way you drive will show others you actual behave
in the real world!! Sucker!
And again I forced to manage my anger to face my
driver behave. But, it’s OK. It will make me wiser if I face the persons who
similar or even worst than your behave! So… go on!
And really annoying day of me! I or you know what the
anger is. And I supposed that you have felt it. It’s normal. But….if you always
and always make me anger, that’s not normal! You should get in to mental
hospital! I have told you a thousand times; please do not involve your own
business with your mandatory work! Did you pity to your close colleague? She
was taking bed rest, you know? So please bring your sanity back! Let your
cheating’s dick free for while!
What?? This company really-really needs me? Is there
not anyone else who can solve this situation? Why always me? Why all urgent
situations always involve me? And how much you can pay me then? But… like usual
I always received the order for my Fortune Boss first. Then I will argue then.
It just my efforts to keep my personal relationships and maybe for overall
quality of my working life! I hope so…
I undergo to understand the mercy of unpredictable and
powerful emotion in my life. I will really understand and control my anger!
17:00-00:00
I really hate if my work business accidentally bring
to my home! But I can avoid it, it really ruin my appetite! Oh… how hard to
dealing, emphasizing harmony among inner of my self and integrating them into
my single personality. How I can less friction and cross-purposes.
Friday, 4
January 2013
00:00-17:00
I hope this day my self awareness can control my
temper. I hope my ability can notice what I’m feeling and thinking. And I can
control my self to all about my thinking before I act. I pray for the mighty
time and mighty God to give me a hundred seconds to think what I will do what I
will act and avoid my regrets that caused by my act. Allow me to have more
choice about how to act when I’m feeling an intense emotion like anger!
Bismillahirohmanirrohim…
My heart was relieved by the wide smile from someone
who has been living in my tiny chamber of my heart. The aura of youth also
spread into mine. I hope this can be my 2nd booster of my life. And
the most relieving of me today is the healthy of she was. Thanks.
Is influence by positive things or else today, I do
not know. Because of that, I can finish my hard job concerning the high problem
of cooperative institution.
And… hihi. I’m worrier than her beetle today! I always
keep my eyes on her! She has custom always walk fast in the way she walks. Is
she forgetting concerning her weak womb? She is to and fro rounding in this
office. So I remind her to take rest, I do not care she will assume on me then.
The important thing is she or I actually always make sure that she will not get
vaginal bleeding again. That’s all.
17:00-00:00
My attention to my beloved wife did not decrease at
all while I was crazy to my sweetie. And that’s I should supposed to do, right?
Although I am adored to my sweetie right now, I should not lose my mine. Is
this my intuition or not? I do not know, for me, she look little un-attractive when
she pregnant. She does not look shiny if compare with the situation before she
pregnant. My daydream is ruined by the tickle of my beloved wife to get me
dinner. And…Soto! It’s delicious. One of my favorite cuisines of my beloved
wife is Soto! She mixed and seasoning the cuisine very match with my entire
family’s tongue!
Soto is the most popular Indonesian cuisine. Almost from west and east of
archipelago called Indonesia, definitely will found original variety of Soto. It depends on local
term when called this cuisine. Normally many traditional soups are called soto, usually the name of Soto
is followed by the main ingredient of Soto, such as if main ingredient is
chicken, Soto will call “Soto Ayam (Chicken Soto)” or consider from where the
Soto origin made of. Such as Soto Makasar, Soto Madura etc. Whereas foreign and
Western influenced soups are called sop.
Soto actually a traditional soup mainly composed of broth, meat and vegetables.
It is a common dish.
Soto is sometimes
considered Indonesia's national
dish, because if you’re in Indonesia, almost every street corner of the city of
Indonesia, you can find Soto!
Because
the Soto was cuisine of my wife and from my house, I always called it… Soto
Lini! It’s considered of my beloved wife name..Lini! Hahahaha…
Saturday, 5
January 2013
00:00-17:00
I
undergo overtime in my holiday again! Unfortunately the booster of I am, did
not come. It’s okay; it’s also being my lesson that everything will not be the
same everyday. I better little decrease my addiction to my booster.
Hmhm…
maintain a relationship apparently is not easy. I think it depend on the early
of relationships begin. If while the early of relationship can feel effortless
and exciting, it will easy to maintain, because it involving ongoing effort and
compromise by us or both partner of relationship. So, I think will waste time
if the relationship does not depend on them. The relationship only benefit only
one party and always depend on only one party interest without care interest of
partner interest. Also in the relationship is called best friend! What is the
essence of best friend actually? If we do not understand what the meaning or
essence of best friend, do not be a best friend of anyone. It is impossible when we do not have a
willing to build a foundation of best friend it self. It will be a naïf thing
if we do not have a willing to explore each interest that we can enjoy
together. And should I or you be a best friend if I or you do not have a
willing to apologize if we make a mistake or hurt relation partner’s feelings?
Where the trust can get by us? I better do not have best friend at all! Just
friend with no sentence of “best” in the previous!
17:00-00:00
I do
not understand why the feeling of being a victim of injustice always haunts me
currently? Is it associated with my financial? Or is it just my feeling
concerning of injustice? It was so disturbing me right now! Moreover if the
consequences of were related with my naivety of I was! I was so dumb!
Apparently I should learn and learn not to glare with others wailing for help.
I do sincere to help, but with my help I feel hurt in the end instead! So, why
I should help?
Better
I watch TV! Go to hell!
Sunday, 6 January
2013
00:00-17:00
When I
was jogging, I saw a teenager who makes me swallowed my nasty lust by proportional
of her body! It’s perfect! I almost forget of my age! Because my instinct
pushes up to catch her and rape her! Hahaha… but I did not lose my insanity. My
lust was still calm in the inside; I only hope will meet again while I was
jogging in the morning!
And
the happen in this morning make me so happy when I cream bathed my beloved
wife. And the lust of my maleness continued… I raped my wife!! Hahahaha…
Take
shower and the comfortably that I get in this beautiful Sunday! Thanks
My
ritual to take a nap in the Sunday afternoon continued…
17:00-00:00
I am
watching National Geographic Channel that aired the controversy of Jesus Christ
“tomb” in Talpiot Jerusalem, I was so socked! Is the reality exactly same with
the exposition of that channel? How shocked the Christian followers? I was not
Christian also very-very shocked with this show. Is it true? They describe detail and make sense! If it is
true, Jesus Christ did not be rise by God but He was buried! Even the
possibility of Jesus has wife or He was married! Wow! It will very-very
challenge the Christian faith that Jesus, after crucifixion, rose bodily to
heaven in his physical form! Ah! Whatever it is, it will make me more confuse
my religious!
And
maybe it also show there’s a big different of the response between Christians
and Muslim if any harassment of religious. But… I do not care! I only care if I
really believe that there’s a Mighty Power Who always rule us!
Monday, January
07, 2013
00:00-17:00
Every
time no night watch in my neighbor, there’s theft in my neighbor! It is like a
political situation! Last week our neighborhood night guard ask pay hike, but
there’s some my neighbor who deny or reject their request. I think the
increment of their salary not to high if compare with their responsibility. But
majority vote of my neighbor are reject their request. And the night guards of
my neighborhood have not willed to conduct night watch. So what can I say, it
just happens. I only feel poor with my neighbor who has theft in this morning,
the notebook, Cell phone and some money was taken by thief. Indeed at 01:30
when I woke up to take pee, I heard the sound of motorcycle even the sound of
woman laugh. I more concern the woman laugh, I only curious maybe the laughing
of woman is ghost! I got out from my house and check the sound and… Oh my..!
Apparently the wife of my neighbor was playing card with her husband! And maybe
I and they not concern at all there’s thief in my neighborhood.
Honor
each other in some way every day is the way to get honor from others, you know?
And why you always make others annoy every time others have opportunity to make
sweeter relationship with you? Did you ever receive from others that make you
have been respected or made you cherished? If your attitude is always showing
and making others annoy, I truly believe that you never received the respect or
something that can make you cherish from others! So, why I should angry? It’s
not influence to me at all; it’s your choice to be public enemy number one!
Freaks!
17:00-00:00
Oh my…
traffic conditions in my hometown almost similar with Jakarta! I think the most
contribution this condition is…behavior! They..hmhm, if you complain why me is
not one of them, because I have good manner in driving! Hahaha.. no harm it all
if I adore to my self first. But.. Indeed, the behavior of road user in my home
town like a cow! Also the contribution of bad urban development effected. More
worst with narrow road spacer and overtaking tendency of “gemblung” driver
create prolonged traffic congestions. How complete it was of my evening regular
activity. Jam in the crowded of home coming from work!
Tuesday, 8 January
2013
00:00-17:00
Organic
fertilizer for my plant ran out! But I’m not worry at all, because there’s a
lot of buffalos shit in my neighborhood! That’s enough as replacement of
regular organic fertilizer. I can harvest my kale in next month. I do sure that
this is my pure organic plant. I only fertilize them with organic sources,
buffalo’s shits and factory made organic fertilizer. 2 days ago I also started
planting chili. I hope I can provide healthy vegetables for my family then.
Next step I will plant other vegetable. So, my activities in the morning will more
colorful with this action.
Hmhm..
There’s of my colleague concern about my religious life. In this time, this is
my choice, maybe I will get the consequences concerning of my choice, and I do
aware! Thank you if you always care about me, but let my conscience read and
responds it. I only do what I’m supposed to do, and I always keep with my
choice, I will not harm others. That’s all. I think my religious is so simple.
Simple as I do believe that there’s a universal spirit, God, Deity or Divine
entity. Because I do believe there’s Divine Entity I also have eternal moral
order that I must follow and obey from that. This is my frame of my life. All
of Devine Entity are still and still be the absolute secret of the secret it
self, right? I only prepare. If it is wrong, no loss of I am at all, and if it
is right, I am ready! By way I hold as a Muslim, is the way I will direct
toward of my life. And I absolutely have those rights, freedom of hold any
teaching of religious and I still have individual’s ultimate loyalty to my
religion as Muslim! And my big question is… How will you be threatening
differently if Islam is minority in this country! Are you still arrogant with
your opinion?
I do
not know it because of my base as Javanese or what else, I do not know. I only
feel annoy if others always interfere others religious life. As Javanese I can
not leave syncretism because the open mind of Javanese. Maybe I prefer have a
view as worldview! Actually I live in this world and I interact with this world
ant its philosophy! I have and maybe others al have different way to express
their love to God!
17:00-00:00
I usually know what I will do… Only this guidance I can follow my instinct
to get life and melt in it!
Wednesday, 9
January 2013
00:00-17:00
My
youngest son Juang got flu. He’s whimper all time. And the sound of rain still
continued. Yes, in this month usually is the top of rainy seasons. I hope rain
can make everything better! Include the healthy of my sons and family!
How
shocking it was! I’ve got news that my other site colleague was death by
falling tree while he was riding motorcycle! Is it destiny or just bad luck?
And more concern that there’s a thousand ways to dies! More shocking and poor
of him that he just married! Oh God, how absolute Your Power! We can do
anything if You want it. Be just to be! Who will think if you are riding
motorcycle, you will die by falling tree??? We do not want in our live bad
things, right? But which the power of us can avoid them in our live? Be just to
be! No matter you’re good people or bad people if bad lucks happen to you, you
can avoid it! So, are we still deny that there’s a Mighty Power up there?
We
design our own destiny and fate by choices that we make, but what can we say in
this situation? I only take lessons that I will not adore my absolute
confidence in facing the journey of life. I still need guidance from the Mighty
Power up there. There is no higher power that I will get want I want while I do
not want it at all.
Rain
all day! Also accompany with hard wind or exactly tropical cyclone. Maybe if
comparing with the scale of typhoon, not even hard, but it’s enough frightening
me! Moreover if I remember the information that I’ve got today my other site
colleague was death by falling tree. Billboard of PERTAMINA also collapsed in
this day. Fortunately there’s not people injured or killed.
17:00-00:00
On the
way home was still accompanied with rain and hard wind, but I’ve been invited
by my Fortune Boss for dinner. So, in this rain I should come by to the
restaurant that usually we eat for dinner. I actually little not interested
with this invite, but he is my Fortune Boss who rule me in anyway he want. And
he is the one of my pillar which I can hold it if I’ve got a bad flood of my
job! So, I should keep my pillar for my own good.
And it
can predictable, my Fortune Boss want me to involve in expansion project job.
This is always made me un-comfort. I do not use leave my family for a long
time. And surely I have plan on my site too. I little worry it will ruin my
plan.
Thursday, 10
January 2013
00:00-17:00
Rains
with hard wind have not stopped yet. The sound like a whistle of God! But
thanks God it is not disturb the deep sleep of my youngest son Juang! It’s
upside down with the condition of my youngest son Juang yesterday morning. His
cold totally relieved this morning. But… that comfort was ruined by the cut off
of electricity! The dawn was covered by frightening darkness! Alternately the
sound of whistling and thunderous of wind frightened us. My middle son Igi only
chilled when he woke up. He even in the deep silent when heard the thundering
sound of falling object in my house’s veranda! As a father also as a man, I
directly check what happen outside although I was discourage too when heard
those frightening sound! Apparently my plant pot has fall.
I
persuaded my sons to go sleep and ignore this condition. He usually did not
want if I hold him when he slept, but now he accepted with pleasure when I hold
him. Not for a while he slept again. And my youngest son Juang and my beloved
wife still did not disturb at all! They’re still in deep sleep! About 4:30 the
electricity just re-connected. It considers the dawn has come; I start
continued morning ritual, not in religious but my regular activities! Haha..
On the
way to my office, again I stuck in the worst traffic jam. But this was caused
by a lot of falling tree blocked the road.
I’ve
been facing hard choice again. Other side the choice is very influence about my
career; in other side I must sacrifice my family life. Year by year I have been
usually together with my family. I just been called by my Fortune Boss that I
should take the new duty. Fortunately the location of new duty in the city that
I’ve been left for almost 6 years! So, should I came back and take my family
move there? It’s hard decision! If
related with my job, it’s my new challenge! I force to organize and manage the
supply chain logistic management. This is totally new for me and of course my
new challenge. I ask for some time to think and discuss it with my family.
17:00-00:00
What a
surprise for me the respond from my beloved wife concerning the plan of my
company! She’s little hysteria. I really understand why she acts like that.
When we lived in previous city, we also try hard to let and forget the city
which full memories about us. Almost 9 year I lived in that city. Now we should
move to the city that in here, my current live has been so comfort to live in.
So I decided to reject the job.
Friday, 11 January
2013
00:00-17:00
I do
not care with weather condition this morning. My head was full of the thinking
is my choice right? Like a wise said that the opportunities did not come twice!
But when I remembered my beloved wife respond last night, I determined to
reject the offer from my company. Bismillahirohmanirohim…
I can
not wait to tell to my Shaggy Hair Boss concerning my rejection. And
surprisingly, he’s little happy with my decision. What a curious. But thanks
God he not annoy or angry with my decision.
My
decision was little wobbly when my Fortune Boss and my Colleague gave some
advice and a view concerning my new job. They also describe what I will take
benefit from that. Arrrgghhh….!!
Finally
I ask some time…again to think well about my decision. And indeed…the supply
chain! Those words were tickling my adrenalin to know it. Supply Chain Management encompasses the
planning and management of all activities involved in sourcing and procurement,
conversion, and all logistics management activities. Importantly, it also
includes coordination and collaboration with channel partners, which can be
suppliers, intermediaries, third-party service providers, and customers. In
essence, supply chain management integrates supply and demand management within
and across companies. Supply Chain Management is an integrating function with
primary responsibility for linking major business functions and business
processes within and across companies into a cohesive and high-performing
business model.
17:00-00:00
While
we were dinner, I express my wish to receive the offer from my company. I was
long-long explanation to my beloved wife. With the solution, maybe I little
tired to commute inter city! But what can I say, only those solutions my
beloved wife finally received my explanation.
OK!
Supply chain Management...I’ll come in!
Saturday, 12
January 2013
00:00-17:00
To
entertain my beloved wife, we take simple culinary tour around the city. And we went to the city of rain instead! It’s
OK, as long as my beloved wife happy, I’ll do anything. And just like a fiew
weeks ago, we only admire the beauty of the city with giants’ trees without
stopping at all! We just passed by and
just like that! I also offer to my sons take lunch in this city, but like I
supposed, they reject it. They prefer take lunch at usual places.
17:00-00:00
Almost
dusk we arrived at my beloved city. Can you imagine, my sons prefer to hold
their hunger than take a lunch in the rains city! How curious of my family! Of
my…
Sunday, 13 January
2013
00:00-17:00
I
continued my plan to make other vertical pot to plant chilly. And again my
neighbor was surprised with my activities. They said that I was a creative, but
if they knew I only imitated the idea from internet!
Almost
in the middle of the day I just finished my activities to sink with my plant.
17:00-00:00
I
think I will never stop to think and search the good neighbor is. I will always be a good neighbor for others; I
will never give up if my neighbor was not good for me. I truly believe if we
good to others, the others will good to us. That’s all… Maybe this is big
different among us. You always adore your own interest, I always try to
accommodate others interest and combine it for our goodness.
Monday, 14 January
2013
00:00-17:00
What a
surprise, my Shaggy Hair Boss look unhappy when I told him that I considered
the offer from my company. I wonder what make him feel, usually if I or others
receive the offer my Boss always happy. So, what make him unhappy? Is it just
because my capability or others?
Whatever
it is, I will take a chance from my choice, like the wise said that the honor
is not about making right choice, but it’s about dealing with the consequences
of those choices.
Finally
I officially transferred to new job effective on March 2013. Maybe in the first
step I will take some trained in Japan.
Psst..ssst…
when I told to my sweetie concerning my new job, she restless and disappointed!
She will resign if I am not in this office. I know that it’s truly deepest
feeling from her! Hahaha… and when I offer to her will her with me in new job office,
surprisingly she ready! That’s a strange
relationship of us!
17:00-00:00
I was little
careful to tell to my beloved wife that I officially transfer to new job
effective on March 2013. And like I think, she bombarded me with the questions
that start with “if”! So I answered that
start with “because”! Hahaha
Tuesday, 15
January 2013
00:00-17:00
Wow…!
I do not care if those the incarnation of the ambiguous of people that people
will put up the mask for whatever reason; I really surprise the respond of my
colleague especially in my section if I go. The most of them very-very lost of
me! They said who else will defend them if they got any conflict with my Super
Duper Boss or My Super Duper Lucky Boss! They estimate those bosses only adore
their own interest without any heard or learn the interest of them! Is it
thinking so? Once again, I really surprise the respond of them.
My
Fortune Boss called me that I should undergo logistic training at Japan for a
month! OK!
In the
afternoon chat, I heard the want and the desire of them if I go. Hmhmhm.. I
only give them a simple advice be careful about comparing their selves to
others. Sometime that can make them feel good or even inspire to improve in
some way. But sometimes it can make them overlook what’s truly good about their
self and cause them to feel bad! And those truly the challenge of comfortable!
And remember, the most important thing about the people is what we’re like
inside. Not what we own or what we’ve accomplish!
17:00-00:00
My son
Ega still does not understand at all the important of study to face national
examination. Little patient I explain to him.
Wednesday, 16
January 2013
00:00-17:00
Ohh…!
Apparently the rumor was right! My Shaggy Hair Boss will be backed to the Japan
on April 2013! I do not know at all what the caused of it, I only knew that he
already over 5 years in Indonesia. If related with the contract, maybe the
contract was end. For me he is the good
boss of us. He always heard and received the good of our opinion. It makes all
of my colleagues especially in my section more restless! The first the will
lost me and now they heard that my Shaggy Hair Boss also will go on April 2013!
Life
goes on… From the birth till the end
of life we all are facing obstacles. First we all try to identify our
surroundings. Then we try to pass our feelings to others. That is a big
obstacle. The child will find a way to pass his feelings. New born child can
pass his feeling to his mother by crying. In the latter part of the life we
have to overcome more obstacles such as learn to walk, learn to speak, write,
pass exams, find an employment, and select a suitable life partner. That’s a
life!
Hmhm…
When I thing about times when I’ve done something good to my sweetie, is that
pure from my feeling or just flash out the catch of my eye concerning her
youngest, or It’s only maleness of I am? I do not know. But my curious little
parted when I did not enthusiasm like always when she little flattered to me,
because my eye did not catch the youngest of she was in the time she pregnant
right now. Is this only physical matter? The circumstances painted my eye; the
circumstances only cover my eyes with the beauty of youngest.
17:00-00:00
When I
came home and when my beloved wife with my youngest son in her arm welcoming
me, in my mind emerge the thinking of bless! This is truly blessed that I feel.
And proven the love need more understanding and deeper thinking!
Thursday, 17
January 2013
00:00-17:00
Take
part in morning activities that make me feel good. The fresh of morning dew,
the exotic buffalo’s shits that have mixed with morning aroma can make me
comfort! Indeed!
Day by
day my determination about my choice was being better and better. Now I am not
afraid if I fail. I will try something new; I will take any risk of it. I only
will take experiences that will help me grow and discover how wonderful of
life!
My
Shaggy Hair Boss was also feeling better. He started to smile and enthusiast to
start work today. My Sweetie…? Like always, she keep searching something in me
that will make her safe! And that’s why she asks me for advice over and over
every time I tell her about my new job. Will she resign? Just time can answer
it. It makes me clear that actually she truly need me! Hahaha…
17:00-00:00
All of
my sons were in front of TV sets when I came home! Wow… is there interesting TV
show that can make them ignoring me when I came home? When I take attention to
TV, Ah..! I see, they sink in the thriller of supernatural movie…Covenant! OK…
without take off my uniform and my shoes, I joint with them! My beloved wife
only shakes her head, but with the patient of the mother, she starts to take
off my uniform and my shoes! Thanks my dear…
Friday, 18 January
2013
00:00-17:00
Ordinary
Friday but extraordinary weather! Rain all day! Flood everywhere! Especially in
the capital of my beloved country, the water is raging! They are flooding
almost entire city, including the presidential palace! If I think, my home is
better than presidential palace! My home is free of flood even in heavy rain.
Before
I go to my office, I see the news that the floods have already grab 15 life!
Driven thousands from their home and paralyzed the sprawling city! All central districts
were down. Unfortunately the time already show the time that I must go to my
office. I go to my office also in heavy rain.
I
start a……
17:00-00:00
I feel
not well in this evening…, take a sleep for while.
Saturday, 19
January 2013
00:00-17:00
Thanks
God, my illness did not continue in this morning. I feel very fresh and
healthy. So I can take care of my plant and sink with them. I did not take
holiday overtime in this Saturday. I will take little lessons if I can not
enjoy holiday overtime then. Think about my new duty, I feel rather afraid
about the situation. But when the time that I can take the big chance likes
this? So what the big deal on it?
Little
tired caused I must move some dirt and change it for the fresh one. I mixed with some buffalo’s shit! But that’s
the way to keep my vegetable purely organic.
Apparently
my freshness is temporary. I feel not well in this afternoon. After I woke up
from my afternoon nap, feeling unwell was surrounding in my entire body.
Stomach ache, head ache, little fever combine with the weak of my body were
disturbed me very well!
17:00-00:00
My
appetite also gone! This is what I’m worry about. If my appetite is gone, that
the sign from my body need bed rest! I do not worry at all if my appetite is
still on my lust. Even I got hard fever, if my appetite is OK; I truly believe
that my illnesses will relief not for a while. But if my appetite is gone,
based on my experience I have been one in my body, that’s the time I should
worry!
Sunday, 20 January
2013
00:00-17:00
Completely
my bodies shut down! Mayday…mayday. But I still insist do not go to the doctor.
Let my antibody battle with the disease. I only let my body shut down with take
bed rest in the entire day. And I force to get some food in my stomach! Especially
I drink pure honey that I got some weeks ago.
17:00-00:00
I
still shut my body down…
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